الموت لم يَكُن يومًا عقابًا، وإنما هو الخلاص. بوت؛ @Yourdarkfuckingside_bot
I'm losing the person I was
When I found you
Am I acting different
When I'm not around you?
I'm being dramatic I say
That I'm losing
I wanna show you all the
Things I've been doing
I'm going on dates and I'm
Hanging my head
I wanna share an
Apartment, a room and a
Bed, I wanna tell you I love
You but I cannot reach you
I'm learning to lose that's
A thing they don't teach you.
I suppose your words and your promises were nothing but a beautiful lie.
Читать полностью…Over and over, I keep going over the world we knew..
Once when you walked beside me..
That inconceivable, that unbelievable world we knew..
When we two were in love!
And every bright neon sign turned into stars~
And the sun and the moon seemed to be ours~
Each road that we took turned into gold.
But the dream was too much for you to hold..
Now over and over, I keep going over the world we knew!
Days when you used to love me..
في عالم أحلامي، نحن نذرف الدموع معًا، لا يوجد إختلاف كبير عن الواقع، الفرق أننا مستلقيان معًا على نفس الأرضية، على نفس البقعة، أجسادنا تتلامس بعناق مريح يُعطي شعورٌ حزين ولكن جميل.
Читать полностью…أعتقدتُ أنني على ما يرام ولن يفاجئني شيء بعد الآن لكن الحياة مجرد مزحة قاسية، فهي تبصق عليك وتضحك بعد ذلك مباشرة.
Читать полностью…It's one of those days when you feel like everything is this close to fall apart.
Читать полностью…Maybe just maybe u fucked up and you need to fix it u idiotic self centered creature.
Читать полностью…- Did you ever feel you could make people happier if you just left?
: .. No?
- Were you abandoned earlier in your life?
: Aa-.. aa..
- That was not a hard question, it deserves yes or no.
- Simply answer the question.
: ..
: Yes.
- Well I'm sorry. I didn't realize you were going to start crying.
- You're a sensitive man, aren't you?
: ..
- You need a partner.
- You nodded a little quickly on that one.
- You're lonely, aren't you?
: A little bit.
- That's okay.
- What have you discovered about being alone?
- Seek deep inside of you, what have you found about being alone?
: It's peaceful.
- Peaceful. Meditative.
: Yes.
- So really, you don't need a partner?
: No.
- You're okay alone?
: Yeah.
- It's alright.
: I-..
- We love you anyway.
: I-i don't believe that.
- You don't believe that we love you?
: I don't believe that you, can feel any other emotion than hate.
- I'm. I'm loving you right now.
: It doesn't feel like that.
- feelings aren't real.
- feelings are a reaction to a perceived wound that's never been healed.
- Apparently you were very wounded as child.
: ..yeah..
- So here's something i want you to think about. You ready?
: Uhmm..
- Life is meant to be lived in the moment, not through what you have, but what you can give.
: ..
- What do you think of that statement?
: It's facts, i agree.
- Then how come you're so fucked up?
It doesn't matter if the person is a she or a he, it doesn't matter if they're a them, being a dickhead doesn't require a specific gender.
Читать полностью…أتسائل ماذا تفعل روحك في هذا الوقت المتأخر؟ هل تحتسي القهوة المرة؟ مع سجارة عتيقة وجدتها شبه مطوية تحت طيات سريرك بعد أن أنزلقت من بين أصابعك حين كُنتَ شارد الذهن مع كل تلك الأفكار المشوشة التي لطالما حاولتُ فهمهما عنك داخل ذلك العقل المعقد خاصتك.. هل يا تُرى تشاهد النجوم وتلتقط بعض الصور المشتته للسماء كما كنتَ تفعل في ليالينا الباردة؟ هل لمحت عينيك خفاشًا هارب..؟ هل تُذكرك هذه الأمور بما كنا عليه وما كنا سنكون لو لم تتفارق طُرقنا؟ أتسائل أذا كُنت تحلم الأن وترغب بأخباري عن تفاصيل ما رسمت مخيلتك في منامك..؟ أم أنني لم أعد ذو معنى في حياتك حقا. أتسائل ما أن كان هنالك شيء ذو معنى لك في ذكرياتنا؟ رغم أنني أعلم.. أنا الوحيد الذي سيتذكر أغلب التفاصيل و أنت ستكون من يخبرني أن أعيد لك روي ذكرانا مرةٌ أخرى ثم أخرى إلى أن أتى اليوم الذي توقفتَ عن طلب ذلك.. كان ذاك اليوم هو نهاية الشعور وبداية الشرود داخلي في كل تلك الذكريات التي لن يعلم عنها أحد غيري.
Читать полностью…Thoughts of the day.
Every time my brain decides to bring you up, my beautiful lost star, I perform my newest trick which is 'quickly finding a fast distraction to my brain' it actually worked, I never did that with you but I had to treat you this way recently or I'll lose my mind, it's surprisingly working and I get distracted but it has a catch, a side effect if I may call it this way, each time I do that I gain a very gloomy undesirable feeling that rots insides of me somewhere, I don't feel it yet but I know it's there, like cancer, you can't feel it at first but when it reaches a certain amount of mass it'll crash you to death, and may the lord spare me the upcoming damage.
Whatever you think, whatever you feel, let it sink inside of you, let it rot away, don't let them know, don't let them see, be restless, be careful, don't let your guard down, they're always watching.
Читать полностью…Not a chance dear, you are and will always be alone.
Читать полностью…What about some of u guys send something interesting? Cuz life is so fucking boring..
Читать полностью…You're not mysterious and cool, you're just like everyone else so quit faking it, it's pathetic.
Читать полностью…أظنُ أنني لن أتمكن من الشعور هكذا مجددا، كمن يغرقُ داخل شعور الحب، كشخص مخمور بالشغف.. احيانا أفتقدهُ.. فأبتسم أبتسامة باهته ثم أدخن سجارتي وأنا أتمتم "أرقد بسلام أيها الحب."
Читать полностью…Happy mothers day to all of the children that had to become their own guardians.
Читать полностью…I'll be seeing you eventually, i don't know when or where but i know I'll, because we all die in the end.
Читать полностью…I saw what i need to see in my dreams.. What left to do in reality..?
Читать полностью…December 26, 00:00
My North star you passed another year, you fought, you pushed, you argued, you lived, you handled everything, you shined then almost faded but went back on track again and lightened your sky along with mine once more with your beautiful spark, you refused to give in to the fading temptation, you shined brighter in my eyes each time you get over another cruel situation in our tiring lifetime, proud to have the ability to watch you live, to watch you grow and watch you glitter your way through your dreams, I'm proud of you, I'll always be..
Happy birthday ~~<3