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Gone ... Gone ... Gone
I don't know where I am
Its dark
I only see nothing
Nothingness
That's when I knew I went too far
Too far gone
I don't know where I am or who
I kept on asking
All there was was a road
So I kept on going
gone ... gone ... gone
I don't know where I am
It getting too dark
Too blurry too vague
I only see nothing
Nothingness
Thats when I knew I went too far too far gone
I don't know where I am
or Who
Who I was
Who I am
Who I will be
Even who I am being
I kept on asking
All there was was a road
So I kept on going
There was times
I wished I could go back
I tried...
Some how no matter which way I tried to go all roads seems to lead me to the same destination
Nothingness
Now I am facing the Dark
I couldn't let it sink in to my heart
I didn't wanted to go in to it
I didn't wanted to pass through it
Or "Let it" pass through me
But it felt like I had no choice
I can't go back and
I can't stop either.
Ted Estif
#TedEstif #gitemsitem #poeticsaturdays #artinaddis
"I know that my feelings for you are real. As i spend more time thinking of you than myself."
❤️❤️❤️
@freetlakk
Scar's
If I could I would sacrifices my soul, my being just to avoid falling for you
If I could I would cut my eyes out just to avoid seeing you smile
If I could I would die earlier before meeting you
I am afraid of height and falling too but some how in some ways I fall for you
Not knowing what would happen at the bottom
Whether I land on my feet or break my back,
That is how much I trusted you
I touched you infinity,
I tattooed you deep in my heart,
I wispered you to the stars, I treated you like the rarest thing in the earth,
I had butterflies in my stomach,
I was good to you
Loving you was the last thing I done
And I was good at it
Most of the times I smile
And gave you a thousand second chances, just to prove I am wrong and you right
I did Olympic worth back flip and believe you are the one
One, you left me
One, you used me
One, like you never had memories of me even the little you had , that is a big may be, you scattered them like the stars
One, sometimes when I see a couples in the streets I wish it would have been us
One, one, you smile with her like I never existed
One, I hate her
Ten, I hope she smiles with your jokes but you would remember me instead of her
Nine, I hope she would feel my infinity touch's, smell my perfume on your body and leave you
Eight, may be then you would want to know how I get my scar's
Seven, you would want to know how time heal the pain and what would you do when those days come, when you don't feel like yourself, when it is upside down
Six, you would wander, when you feel worthless, you would wander,
How I get my scar's
Five, see I ripped you out of my heart, I ripped you out of my smile,
I spoke to you in to my shadows, so you would vapor to thin air
See, I stopped my heart so i could breath again
Four, see I swallowed my pride, but it clues back to my mouth
Three, to her, to the random girl you start dating, I think I saw her in your smile but I cried and washed her too
Two, see I scratched you, from my chest, i used my finger nails
One, that is how I gat my scar's.
One , that is how I smile everyday
One , that is how l smile everyday
🦋🦋🦋🦋
@freetalkk
Untill
I watched you, I was there right next to you
I saw you, like I never caught glimpse of your truth
You shattered like a glass that slipped from my fingers.
I never saw you like that,
I stood there but I didn't have any words that could make you feel better.
I stood there without saying anything.
I Just watched you,
People come and go, they tell stories,
And you smile, for few seconds then you go back to the sorrow
I was there watching, most of the times hoping I will see few seconds of light within you...
There was nothing I can do
Expect sit there besides you
Hoping thoes few seconds of smile will last more
Of course, despite of what you going through
But I do understand, your feelings, the darkness, I do
I do,i do, i do understand
It's not easy to stand on the grave of your protector, your love
It's not easy to say goodbye
I watched you, you refuse to go to empty house
You said there is no one to tell you the past, the untold truth that where suppose to come
So they hold you, left and right
They hold you, coz you couldn't stand
I watched you.
I watched you.
I watched you when they drag you out of the grave yard
So I'm not going anywhere, I am gonna sit beside you
Praying until you become strong
Until you find your peace
Until I saw you part
Until you send the last farewell
Until you start smiling from the memories you had instead of feeling distances and fall apart
I'm going to sit there do nothing just watching....
🦋🦋🌹🌹
@freetalkk
It's okay
if you move the mountains for me..
I know you care and love
But it's okay if you don't too
I know it doesn't mean your feeling are less than they are
Infact, It's just mean you're terrible at showing it.
It's okay, if you ask a second chance for a 1009 times
I will forgive you.
That is how much you mean and how much i love you.
And sometimes, somedays
It's okay if i had to wait for hours and hours
You know, I have pretty good reason for that too
You must be stuck on something
Cause i know i matter to you, i know i have a place within you
That no one could take
I am inreplaceable
So it's okay, wether you move the mountains or did nothing..it's okay
I gat my thoughts to fill on your place,
I gat them to make you look good,
Or at least to give you excuse for the doings of you
So,It's okay if u can't show your love,
It's okay, my heart understands you
It's won't break, there won't be any shades for you..
Why would there be any,
Remember I am no-thing to you,
And you are just a fancy someone that live in side my head
But that is okay too
🦋🦋🥀🥀
@freetalkk
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The definition of a lady
I should represent the society
That is what they say!!
I should full fill the definition of a lady in the eyes of the society ...
Legend say's
I become a lady when I took the responsibility's of my mother in very young age, coz that is what she done
When her brother was running around
And if I ever want to be like my brother
God forbid, I am a sinner, then 7 days of holiwater
Let the demon of freedom leave you alone!!!!
Let the demon of freedom leave you alone!!!!
Next I become a lady when I am pure, purity that can only be defined with my vergeinity...
I become a lady when the society gave me to 40 something years old Man in the name of education
When the fact and the truth is just to destroy me
But it is ok, all before I and her has been given it's part of there Norm.
Then I become a woman,
The 1st night of my marriage, his mother put a white sheets.
That will be a test of my purity
And in the morning, if she find blood, then I pass the test.
What an ideal fucking test!!
I become a woman
when I have daughter, put her through on the same manner
Only then I am part, I get the approval from the society.....
@freetalkk
Dath kissed him
I wish he said, I wish I can kiss your lips,
This is my wish to know the test of it
The power is in you to grant it
Oh God, I can imagine how your lips test
I can imagine, those strawberry in my lips
I would bit your lower lip and then the upper
I wish he said, I wish I can kiss your lips
His wish has been granted
The temptation drove him to poisoned strawberry lips
He kissed her but before the upper lips, dath kissed him......
@freetalkk
love is giving someone the power to destroy you.. but trusting them not to do
• @x_letters •
Stay positive
Sometimes, the thought of lossing someone is unbearable, the fear of being alone makes it harder.
It's part of a change, in fact the world is in the process of changing and struggling every minute. one's changes, Should never be surprise. It's humans nature to adapt a new situation as well as to stay in routine.(it has also a certain degree of choice)
So as I see it, one's change is expected. The change could be positive or negative.
It's true the change of other could affect us in so many levels.
If it is positive, we shall take it as impact and reason for us to discover a new path.
If it is negative, we shall not change our values and believes. Or the matter of fact, stay true to ouselfs.
people change then and know it's not a surprise.
Our values and believes will be tested on the other hand, improved.
Therefore, don't let negativity of situations, people's, changes, lies, rage, fear .......consume your true self.
The best in you can only be found in you.
Stay positive🦋🌹
@freetalkk
Her madness and his maturity?
No, her madness, and his madness too, that's what they were. Two crazy heads raising hell together.
Perfect?❤
@feelingsssssss
we get so busy in life, that we don't feel what's alive
We just see what's on surface, we refuse to take a dive
We bury our emotions, we don't say we feel
We close our eyes to the pain, we refuse to heal
just an empty plastic life, that we alive online
we don't connect to souls, we don't cross that line.
Feel more. Live more.❤
#poetry
@feelingsssssss
Did I love before?
I said I loved before
I even told stories about love, for the little ones
Of course I had to add just enough lies, so it can have happy endings..
I told them it was only 3dates,
I whispered, he had my heart, It was like a fair tell.......
Iike the movies, the ones with glass slipper..
He found her so that he would solve her Mistry....
He found her so that he would be free but prisoned as the same time....
But the truth was,it wasn't like those kind of stories, mine is a little different.....
Just a bit, my prince left me on the door step, there was no happy endings, nothing, no closure......
I said to my self, may be it doesn't hurt or it does,I don't know..
I asked how long, how long I would watch the door?
May be he would come or not?
it doesn't matter!!!!,I stood there waiting
Then I knew it hurt....
Keep in mind
I loved before and I loved now
Time passes I shall say, this is my time.
I am a new power, I am ready to love.
I meet my prince charming,
I take a sip of the forbidden wain,i tested the lips of him, I was lost in love, with him and with love..(both)
Poor me, he left too, they both did
I asked
Wait I loved before, I know the pain !!
Aren't it supposed to be the same???
Shouldn't my heart feel with rage
I should be familiar with it...
Of course I loved, I know love, wait didn't I love before?
I saw the door step every night when I close my eyes
But this pain is higher or true
I wouldn't want to close my eyes, I am afraid of the darkness,you and love.
Yes!! You, I would see your figure and I be drowning with your memories....
My heart isn't filled with rage,
Instead it hoped for better days
What kind of love is it?
did I even love before??!
🤷♂🤷♀💔
@freetalkk
"Man made prisoner by the love of a woman
And woman prisoner by the love of man "
They sick freedom in each other.
True color of beauty...
🦋🦋🦋
@freetalkk
HANDWRITING LETTERS WILL NEVER GO OUT OF STYLE....
SO CLASSIC🖤🖤🖤
@freetalkk
cracks between you and me(in my side)
In my side, there is naked bars and parking lot's
There is also air so tin, that could be breath in softly but yet it falt heavy in the inside
There is sky to dark,that will make you wonder if you love the darkness more than your loved once
My side on Sunday
On Sunday, we have a ceremony of visiting the grave yard of dead relationships
Shattered hearts holding black flowers
I think it's because most came to tragic conclusion that love is not enough or good reason to stay together
Or most have been torn apart to many times that the lines do not fit anymore
Or most become to fragile to believe in love or second chance
Or, or you had to kiss a fool and some how you let the kiss to fool you
Or you meet people that are the most successful lier's
My side on Saturday,
Every Saturday there is an event held at the East side, with the title of "the art of slipping away from loved once"
You would walk-in, but your pride will be the Rob that tie's you up and you will fall on your self seem
Every Saturday, you would buy more hate, more disgrace with cheeper price and if you lucky even for free
Every Saturday, you would buy dead flowers to represent your soul
Every Saturday, you would buy sleeping pills, to avoid the day light
And from Friday to Monday after midnight,
There is a game where your memories play tag with your soul
Sometimes they play during the day and anxiety tie's you to bed
Your body and your mind become a broken Maze
There will be no way out so you slip in to the darkness slowly then you become the darkness itself.
My side, there is only grave yard of broken heart and dark souls.
@freetalkk
Honestly
I am afraid if I let you in fully
You would crush my bones, strips of my soul and choke me with my own pain
I am afraid you would find out I am not alone, I live with my anxiety
Yes, with my anxiety!!
See some times she make me ignore you, some times she took over my body
And that is why I am anxious, clumsy, tired, nervous mostly
I am afraid you would know I am in a battle everyday
Compliment, criticism, judgement, excitement
Then, then there is split personality
And if I let you be close, close enough you would see this scar's all over my body
Some I cut my wrist to see if I bleed black.
Some I cut my skin in the shape of heart that is may be, may be if I be cool enough to be loved
Some from the expectation of the society,
Some from my parents
Some from my ex boyfriend
Some from my teachers
Some from the government
I feel suffocated
I am afraid if I let you in fully, you would use me
I mean , write about me
I mean, make me your project
I mean, my life to you so amusement as the last night stand up comedy show
I mean, fix me
I mean, use me
I remember,
I remember my very first boyfriend said" you should open up, show me your dark side"
See, I admire how he thinks, but I wasn't in love enough to introduce him to my roommates
And he asked" what roommates!!!"
Fact, my anxiety exist
Fact, my split personality
Fact, my scar's
Fact, the battel I'm fitting
Fact, the means that made me stand in front of him,
Despite of the sheeking, nerve-racking and a million other -ings
Fact, that i couldn't be his girlfriend with all the weight I'm carrying
So I break up with him
I know deep down it's because of her,
My anxiety thinks he is not ready for threesome
She said "he won't be able to handle us"
So she let him be free,
Of course not my choice
Honestly, I am afraid if I let you in fully
You would face her, and I would have to stop to smile
I would have to give up my perfect being or figure you see
I would have to see my broken self in your eyes, hunted by gost of her and your judgement
So I am not ready to let you in
🦋🖤🦋
@freetlakk
Spicy
I like my food when it is spicy
I prefer chilly
I like how it is out of order.(in our house)
My mother would say, it is not right for you to eat spicy food
It will make your skin lot darker
Can't you see my friend Elsa's daughter
She is the same age as you, she doesn't eat spicy food and she even drinks her milk too
Why won't you hear me?
Why can't you be like her or the girls you see from the movie?
They are perfect, why won't be like them? Why?
I think of it
It's is not only my "dark" skin that concerns her or the fact I like chilly
Instead it was what I represent when I walk in,
It is what I bring to the table
It is what I say, in perfectly sweet situation
When everyone is "sugar-coughting" everything.
As my food choices, my opinion and values doesn't obey the rules "of" the table
I represent fairness, boy or girl balanced responsibility
I bring lot of heat, like chilly.
I like to "sweat", when I eat.
Use my hands as a fun
I like how it's just out of order.(in our house)
My mother would say why? Why?
Why can't you obey me? Do what I told you to do?
Your room, your "cloth" is "messy" just like your life
Why can't you be like "her" daughter
She is younger than you, have you seen her nails?
You know she drives car too.
Look at you, have you seen how "imperfect" you are?
You are fat, your hair is "messy", you sleep 24/7, you don't go to church, you dont have the rich boyfriend,
Shall I continue?
Why can't you obey me?
Stop, stop telling me how I or he or someone made you feel,
Stop I don't want to hear what you think,
I didn't ask your opinion, just 'FUCKING" do it, obey me
Fit in the box of my thinking
Be like a clay, let me mold you in my perfect way
Why can't you be perfect,
Stop eating those spicy foods,
Be sweet, hear have a bowl of sugar
May be it will add some sweet sense in you
Be perfect,
Be perfect.
@freetalkk
When I had smile on my face for no reason,
I am thinking about you..
And if I ever talk about how ungrateful pain in a** you where, know that I missed you...
@freetalkk
Cold
It's cold , is in it?
Having to go home but no one waiting
Of course, if you are drunk enough you forget it
Or the vivid imagination of holding someone will top it out...
It's cold...
That is your truth, not been able to accept it is one thing
But having to be sucked into the pertending is another
The very thing, you fear is
The very thing,you are
It's just cold ...
@freetalkk
~ For Healers
Our every thought, word and action is our creation. Situations come to us from outside, but our responses are completely our choice.
People may cheat, betray, trouble me, but the emotions I create are my responsibility. I create my emotional wounds and I need to heal myself.
If I say I cannot change my habits, then I am giving myself a negative affirmation and writing a destiny of pain.
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Darck shodows
I screamed on top
Of my lungs,
Yet you push me down,
I shouted, so you would stop
But you ripped my clothes off
You killed me that second...
You cover my mouth,
I can't breath
My eyes can only cry,
Yet the pain was unbearable
You took my innocence
You took my being,
You took my freedom,
Know I can't be sleep, I can't be awake,
I am walking dead...
Are you happy know?
Is this the way you full fill your manhood, forcing me down?
stilling my nights and days?
Is this the the way you know, you are man?
Your one minute satisfaction
Cost me, my color, my childhood, my future....
You suppose to protect me
You suppose to guide me
You suppose to help me
You suppose to give me hand,
But those hands made me frightened,
Stool my pure self
Those hands know I am afraid to hold,
I am on my own,
My identity has been taken
I am on my own
With the darck shodows you gave me
I am on my own......
😔😔💔
@freetalkk
How to be perfect girl
Don't have your own identity
Please him, don't give any opinions!!
Let him be, don't ask him where he was or where he will be!!
Wait him, if he comes home drunk, you don't ask him!!!
If you ever need to talk to him, wait until he ask!!!
And if you ever feel to know where you stand in his life, don't bother to ask!!
You are his trophy, he want to see you like you are a thing from the household goods
That is what you are, that is what definition of perfect girl.
Don't you ever forget it!!
check reality💔
@freetalkk
Fiction
You are like an angel but truly you are devil
You are like a flower but you are poison
You are like the song everone enjoy but, you get no good words
You are like the whole new package but with no tags on
You are like the winner but you gat no trophy
You are like a king but with no queen and no throne
You are like thoughtfull old sole but full of excuse
You are like real but so fiction
@freetalkk
BLACK
Is BLACK a race or it's a behavior or it's just a color?
A color that speak louder
It reflects darkness in the eyes of other
Good or bad/ different shades,it doesn't matter
The very existence of BLACK, has been and will continue to be endanger
BLACK has been forcedly taken away from home, abused, stripped of everything but left with mentality of being lesser humans
Then and now BLACK life's don't matter
Superiority over BLACK has been accepted,
Equality and humanity has been replaced with vanity and cruelty
vengeance, revenge has been up on BLACK but on what ground?
The victims of this act is BLACK yet they where and will continue to be treated less of human.
I can not breath, he said
Over and over again yet he passed!!!
🖤🖤🖤
@freetalkk
✨Learn to enjoy every minute of your life. Be happy now. Don't wait for something outside of your self to make you happy in the future. Think how really precious is the time you have to spend, whether its at work or with your family. Every minute should be enjoyed and savored.
Earl Nightingale
What is more needed to prove you, that you are in love??
Didn't you feel full of joy when your loved once walked in???
Didn't you feel all that matters is the happiness of your loved once???
Didn't you feel the whole world is under you??
Didn't you forget about the time, didn't you feel one hour like one second??
Didn't you crave for the next time you see them??
Didn't you miss them when they are right next to you???
Didn't you imagine to walk up next to them??
What is more needed than this?
🦋🦋🦋🌹🌹
@freetalkk
Only the motives of people matter....
There action is based on situations.....
Stay positive and see the best in person....
😉☺️🙃
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