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🍂 sometimes happy, sometimes sad, always a bookworm. (if you need me, i'll be reading. please don't need me) @kitobqurtiga_xatlar_bot
"Dangasalik" chindan mavjud tushunchami?
Qisqa javob: Yo'q, dangasalik mavjud emas. Buni fan ham rad etadi. Bu shunchaki, chuqurroqda yashiringan ruxiy hastalik va buzilishlarning ko'plab tashqi simptomlarini jamiyat tomonidan noto'g'ri talqin qilinishi, xolos.
To'liqroq:
Doimiy havotir (anxiety)dan aziyat chekuvchilar uchun hatto oddiy yumushlarni bajarish ham bir muncha qiyin kechadi. Bunga bir qancha sabablar bor. Misol uchun, "Eplay olarmikinman?!", "O'xshamasachi?!", kabi yomon hayollar (intrusive thoughts), yoki shunchaki yumushning ko'lamidan tez hayiqib ketish (feeling overwhelmed), yoki, ba'zan yumushlarni bajarishga shunchaki quvvati yetmasliklari (fatigue, burnout) mumkin (chunki, bor quvvatlarini yomon hayollar sug'irib olayotgan bo'ladi).
Depressiya bilan ham huddi shu narsa, jamiyat tushunmay turib tamg'alaydigan holat - "dangasalik" namoyon bo'ladi. Aslida, hech kim tabiiy dangasa bo'lmaydi. Har kimning nimagadir qiziqishi bo'ladi va ayni shu yo'nalishlarda jahd bilan ishlayverishadi. Ammo, ba'zan depressiya va havotir kabi ruxiy buzilishlar natijasida o'zlari yoqtirgan mashg'ulotlarga ham ishtiyoq so'nadi. Ishga borishga, uy yumushlarini bajarishga o'zlarida turtki ham, quvvat ham topa olishmaydi.
Shunday insonni bilsangiz, uning peshonasiga "dangasalik" tamg'asini bosishga shoshmay, avval tub sabablarini bilan qiziqib ko'ring. Nega ularda ishtiyoq so'ngan? Nega xonalaridan chiqmay yotaveradi? Buning uchun ba'zan, bir oz dildan suhbat qurishning o'zi kifoya.
Va keyingi safar kimnidir dangasalikda ayblashdan oldin yaxshilab o'ylab ko'ring. Ular nimalarni boshdan kechirayotganini siz bilmaysiz. 🐻❄️
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some days are hard. and thats okay. we've had good days before. and we WILL have good days again soon. just keep going. and remember, you're doing your best and thats already good enough. 🐻❄️
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why pass your exams when you can just pass away☝️🏼😕
let me rest in peace😩
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i know this won't change anything but i am devastated by the recent events happening in tashkent. i have so much to say to those bloodthirsty religous fanatics who are ready and willing to kill and butcher. especially the religious leaders and scholars who are inflating this hate, provoking the people against the sexual minorities.
let me tell you something. if your religion teaches you to hate and kill those who are different from you, then you need to change your religion. period!
this hate needs to stop. we've had enough.
peace.
the thing is, most of my friends have already given up on their studies. i don't judge them. they need to be understood too. i mean each has their own shit to take care of. but what really makes me miserable is the fact that i have to keep this fight on my own with no one else on my side. and it really sucks sometimes.
well, the main reason why i'm so stressed about my academics while all my friends are just chill is that, first of all, i am double-majoring. that means double the effort, double the stress. secondly, it turns out economics is way harder than i expected with all the quantitative parts of it. business majors were just a piece of cake compared to the academic pressure of econ.
but the good news is that a friend of mine just reached out to me asking if i mind meeting up sometime and prepare for the exams together. well, am i happy? absolutely! is this what i needed the most? absolutely! let's see if it's gonna work out this time. wish me luck!
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so today i had a dream that i finished all my assignments and homework. and then i woke up and i was like so happy and relaxed that i am done with my assingments and i dont have to do anything and i am as free as a bird!!! and then i PROPERLY woke up and realized it was just a dream...
i hate it here😭 i wanna go home...😭
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tutingan opam yaxshi nimarsa boshlapti - @qizim_eshit.
bollaram eshitsa bo'laveradi, nomo'sa behijolat☝️🏼😌
kech bo'lsada anglab yetgan haqiqatim:
"yomon fanlar bo'lmaydi. shunchaki, yomon professorlar bo'ladi"
-kitobqurti☝️🏼🥲
sad reading.
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we did our best today. its okay. we can try again tomorrow. we are just humans afterall.
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O'tkan kunlarda, o'sha qorong'u, qaxraton va qayg'uli kunlarda quyoshni, bahorni, umuman, yorug' va iliq kunlarni intiqib, qora ko'zlari to'rt bo'lib kutgan begunoh bolakay uchun Navro'z kelishi katta bayramdek bo'lardi. U hech qaysi bayramni yoqtirmasa ham (balki, birorta ham bayram u uchun shodiyona, hursandchilikda o'tmagani uchundir) qish bo'yi kun sanab Navro'zni kutar edi. Mana, ulg'ayib, o'zini oyoqqa qo'yib, mustaqil shaxsga aylanganidan keyin ham Navro'z u uchun eng aziz ayyomligicha qolgan.
Bugun - Navroz! Eng aziz, eng yaxshi bayram. Bugun mening bayramim.
Har tuningiz Qadr o'libon,
Har kuningiz, har oyingiz bo'lsin Navro'z!
روز و ماه و سالتان نوروز باد
قلبتان مهر جهان افروز باد
🌸سال نو مبارک🌸
Happy reading!
Happy Nawruz!
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its okay. we'll try again tomorrow. it's been a long day and you did your best. you deserve a warm hug 🤗
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if you're looking for a sign not to kill yourself today, this is it.
sweetheart, you're doing a great job! you'll be fine. not today. not even tomorrow. but you'll be fine soon. don't give up, okay?
warm hugs to everyone who might need one at this moment! 🤗🤗🤗
🐻❄️
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this February we are healing from the things we don't talk about.
🍂
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O'znetning ziyolilar segmentida bir ajoyib tendensiya paydo bo'lgan. Oltin boshlarimiz endilikda "ma'naviy(at)", "bunyodkor/buzg'unchi", "istiqbol", "ziyolilar" kabi klishega aylanib ketgan atamalarni ishlatib, odamlarning ensasini qotirishdan qo'rqib qolishgan. Buning o'rniga endi ular "moral", "konstruktiv", "perspektiva", "intelligensiya" kabi o'zlashma, ammo quloqqa boshqacha eshitiluvchi "xavfsiz" so'zlardan foydalanishmoqda. Meni esa, odamlar ongini aldash shunchalar oson ekani bir tomondan hayratga solsa, ikkinchi tomondan kulgimni qistatyapti. Ya'ni, oddiy omma qulog'iga "millatimizning ma'naviy qoloqlashuviga bunyodkor g'oyalar bilan yondashaylik", degandan ko'ra, "jamiyatning moral-degradatsiyalashuviga konstruktiv yondashuv zarur", degan gap boshqacha eshitilyapti.
ps: hatto o'zim ham bunday so'zlarning o'zbekcha variantini ishlatishda extiyot bo'laman.
happy reading!
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to all the anxious souls out there, here's our new national motto:
"f@ck it! do it anxious!"
god bless the anxious souls! god bless all of them! 🐻❄️
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Depressiya va anxietyning yaramas tomonlaridan biri (o'zi yaxshi tomoni ham yo'q-ku) tumanlar ko'tarilib, nihoyat o'zingga kelganingdan keyin hammaga, literally hammaga nega yo'q bo'lib qolganingni tushuntirib chiqishing kerakligidir. Telefonlarga jovob bermaganing, smslarni ochmaganing, taklif qilingan joylarga bormaganing, xullas, hamma-hammasini hamma-hammasiga birma-bir tushuntirib chiqishing kerak bo'ladi. Tabiiyki, depressiyadek maxluq bilan kurashib holdan toygan tanang va ruxing bunday ortiqcha tushintiruvlarga kuchi yetmaydi. Such a mindfuck...
Xullas, god bless the depressed and anxious souls! God bless all of them!
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When the truth is found to be lies
And all the joy within you dies
Don't you want somebody to love?
Don't you need somebody to love?
Wouldn't you love somebody to love?
You better find somebody to love
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to make things worse, fine dust in Korea reached its record peak in the last 6 years today. i am supersensitive to fine dust and i woke up with quite unpleasant headache in the morning. still not well.
one of the few things i really dont like about korea is its fine dust issue. actually it's polluted air masses that blows in from china. but still. we're geographically very unlucky to be located right right next to china. china is a dirty country in all aspects.
im out
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this whole university drama got me doubting if i ever be able to survive to see my own graduation 😕
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actually, bu semester birorta ham fanim Zoomda bo'lmayapti. hammasi video lectures. in fact, lecture classes Zoomda o'tilishi uchun asosli sabab ham yo'q. Zoom faqat studentlar bilan muloqot qilish kerak bo'lgan, kichikroq darslar uchun yaxshi. lecturelarda esa, studentlar dars payti aktiv qatnashishmaydi. that's why there's no need for delivering the lecture on Zoom.
i have no idea why i wrote these. i might be losing my mind. but anyway. have a good day. good luck with the upcoming midterms!
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Momentum va prokrastinatsiya
Fizikada "momentum" degan atama bor; biror jismni harakatga keltiruvchi kuch. Ba'zan, bizga aynan manashu momentum yetishmay qoladi. Biror ishni qilishni juda xohlaymiz, yoki qilishimiz zarur. Lekin, bunga na kuch, na motivatsiya topolmay qolamiz. Bu holni ayniqsa dars qilish payti kuzatish mumkin. Xo'sh, qanday qilib momentum yaratsa bo'ladi?
Momentum ko'p hollarda biror ishni uddalaganimizdan so'ng o'zimizga nisbatan ishonch paydo bo'lishi bilan boshlanadi. Nimanidir uddalay olishimiz keyingisiga o'tishga ishtiyoq va energiya beradi. Shuning uchun, avval oson yumushlarni tugatib, qiyinlariga o'tish yaxshi natija berishi mumkin. Undan tashqari, qiyin va yirik yumushlarni birinchi qilishlik bor energiyamizni sug'irib olishi, va keyingi mayda ishlarga yetmay qolishi mumkin.
Shuningdek, biror yumushni boshlolmayotgan paytda "shunchaki 5 minut qilaman, keyin to'xtataman", deya ishga kirishish o'z-o'zidan momentum yaratadi va "5 minutgina"ga deb boshlangan ishga kirishib ketib qolganingizni sezmay ham qolasiz.
ashnaqa
happy reading!
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ummuuuuuuman olganda, universitetlar karantin sababli studentlarga yengilliklar yaratishi, ularning o'zi shundoq ham abgor bo'lgan ruxiyatlariga inchunun stress va bosim qilmasliklari kerak bo'lgan bir davrda, toshbag'ir professorlar darslarni oldingidanda qiyin va murakkablashtirish bilan ovora. bizam o'lib ketelikmi endi???😭 studentam odammi aka??😭
yo men o'qishni tugataman, yo o'qish meni tugatadi. lekin ikkimizdan bittamiz aniq tugaymiz.
sad sad reading!
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Yangi yil muborak! Shu fursatdan foydalanib o'zimi chesni radnoy do'sim Moqqiga salom yo'lleman. Moqqi uchun Sherali Jo'rayevning ''Keldi Bahor" qo'shig'ini qo'yib berishilarni so'reman. Rahmat! 반갑습니다! 감사합니다!
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''Nudge"ni yozgan iqtisodchi olim - doktor Thaler iqtisodiyotda nisbatan yangi yo'nalish - "Behavioral Economics"rivojiga qo'shgan hissasi uchun Nobel olgan. Shu sub-yo'nalish bo'yicha ajoyib kitob ham yozgan - "Misbehaving". Shu kitobni bugun o'qib o'tirgan edim, Robert Shiller haqida yozilgan joyi chiqib qoldi. Ism juda tanish tuyildi. Javondagi hamma kitoblarimning mualliflarini tekshirib chiqdim. Lekin, bunday muallif yo'q ekan. Qayerda eshitgan edim-a, deb biroz o'ylanib o'tirgandim esimga tushib qoldi. Bu kishi - Robert Shiller amerikalik iqtisodchi va men shu kunlarda online o'qiyotgan "Financial Markets" darsini o'tgan professor. lol 😂 He is literally my professor! Ba'zan, miyyamga tushunmay qolaman.
ashnaqa.
happy reading!
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Sizda ham bo'ladimi? Kitobni qo'lingizga olasizda, ochishingiz bilan miyyangiz to'xtab qoladi. Biror so'z tugul, harf ham miyyangizga kirmaydi. Huddiki, to'q qoringa nonni suvsiz yegandek yoqimsiz tuyiladi. Boshqa kitobni olasiz. Baribir hech nima o'zgarmaydi. Bu holat miyyaning butunlay hamma narsadan dam olishga passiv agressiv signal berayotganidir. Hamma hammasidan. Hayotdan ham.
sad, sad reading 🍂
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If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not here to see,
If the sun should rise you find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you
And each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand.
He said my place was ready, in heaven far above
And that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned and walked away a tear fell from my eye.
For all my life I’d always thought, I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do.
It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays the good ones and the bad.
I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,
I’d say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized that this could never be,
For emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
When I thought of worldly things I might miss come tomorrow
I thought of you and when I did my heart was filled with sorrow.
When I walked through heavens gates I felt so much at home.
God looked down and smiled at me from his great golden throne
He said, “This is eternity and all I’ve promised you”
Today your life on earth has passed but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last
And since each day is the same there’s no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn’t do.
You have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.
So won’t you come and take my hand and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts with out me don’t think we’re far apart,
For every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart.
Author: David Romano
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Nahot qaytding yonimga, Gulim?!...
Bunga ishonishdan qo'rqaman...
😭
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Mahinning kuyinishi asosli. Umuman, odam o'zi yaxshi tushunmagan sohasi bo'yicha fikr bildirishligi o'ta ketgan ahmoqlikdir. Bu masalada Suqrot ham murosasiz bo'lgan. Ya'ni, jamiyatni faqatgina faylasuflar (u davrda olimlar "faylasuf" deb atalgan) boshqarishi kerak, degan g'oyani ilgari surgan. Ammo, bu osha davrning populist demokratlariga xush kelmagan va Suqrotga qarshi fitnalar bilan uni qatl ettirishgan.
Demokratiyaning asosiy prinsipi ham erkin fikr bildirish huquqi hisoblanadi. Ammo, aynan shu prinsip demokratyaning ichidan chirishiga olib keluvchi eng katta omil hamdir. Chunki, hamma fikr ham haqiqat emas va ko'p hollarda destructive bo'lib chiqadi.
Bu masala ayniqsa diniy-ma'rifiy mazmundagi bloglarda keskinlashib boryapti. "Oblo hakbar''ni to'g'ri aytolmaydigan o'spirinlar hozir yuz minglab auditoriyaga ega va umuman o'zi chuqur bilmagan mavzularda asossiz ma'lumotlar tarqatib yotipti. Aqli bilan emas, hissiyotlari bilan ish ko'ruvchi bizning musulmon olomonlarimiz esa, ularning fikrlarini absolyut haqiqat deb iste'mol qilishyapti.
Bu tendensiyani deyarli barcha sohalarda kuzatish mumkin. Buning oqibatida noto'g'ri va asoslanmagan informatsiya massasi ortmoqda. Mahin esa, shuni o'ylab gapiryapti. Bori shu. Siz ham aqlingiz yetgan soha bo'yicha fikr bildiring. Qolganini mutaxassislarga qo'yib bering.
Peace. 🐻❄️
happy reading!
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