When you feel lonely and depressed , all you have to do is to .. look at the sky . ☁️
By: Rania abdeen
I try to silence my emotions, even if they are screaming to be heard. I try to keep it all to myself, believing they will vanish without a trace as time goes by. But I was wrong; it didn’t leave me; it just sits somewhere else within me. And every night, it haunts me—never give me proper sleep. And to tell you the truth, it is exhausting and will-draining. That’s why one morning I decided to get up on my bed, slide open the curtains on my window pane, take a shower, wear my not-so-tidy confidence, and proceed to my work like I wasn’t carrying heavy loads on my shoulders; but this time I was brave enough to unapologetically express those suppressed emotions that I have kept for a very long time. To set boundaries about my idea of kindness, which I thought before was manifested by always understanding people’s aggressive emotions while bottling up mine. But I realized that by always doing that, I gave them the authority to invalidate mine—a regret on my part.
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Just before Ramadan, the hearts are heavy, some are broken, some have lost precious souls, some are drowning in sin and some are simply trying to stay a float. I ask Allāh swt to heal us, protect us and allow us to reach this blessed month— a month of true reformation.
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— The most beautiful people I know are those who have experienced defeat, pain, struggle and loss, and found their way out from the bottom. These people are full of their unique understanding of life, compassion and kindness. Beautiful people do not just appear, they do.
✍️Sab'r in my heart
You are currently struggling, but you don’t want the people around you to know. It must have been really hard pretending that you have almost everything under control when in fact, you are actually messing things up and you don’t know anymore what to do. I know that it’s not easy for you to talk about the things that have been running in your mind lately because even you, yourself, don’t even understand it anymore. There are things that are not going according to your favor, then other things will start messing up as well, and some things will get out of control. Sometimes, you question your life and the hardships that go with it. I know it’s hard trying to pretend that you are having a sunny day when you are actually experiencing a storm. I know it’s hard, but I want you not to give up. This isn’t just your fight.
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the first step is always scary, but when you started to make yourself familiar to the ground you are walking in, you will eventually find yourself taking the path with ease. keep on trying, believe in yourself because somebody out there is rooting for you too.
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i try to remember that being gentle with myself has helped me a lot more than being cruel ♥️
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Strong people don't have lots of friend.
They walk alone, fight alone, smile alone
and cry alone ✨💕
No matter how sad you are, you must be stronger than your sadness. Because whatever you're feeling now, it won't last.♥️
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You are silently hurting. I know that you have told the people who ask how you are doing that you are okay, but I also know that you just hide everything with the answer that is easy for all of us to say. You are silently hurting because a lot of questions have been running in your mind lately. There are challenges that you don’t know anymore how to survive, but you still keep on hoping that you will. There are people who keep on hurting your feelings that you are becoming familiar with the pain, but you still manage to put on a show that you are just fine. There are things that you badly want to have as of now, but it feels like life isn’t allowing you to have it and it is breaking you into million pieces. I know that it’s hard, so please do yourself a favor.
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Setiap hari saya cakap dekat diri saya, "Jangan marah. Jangan dendam. Sabar." Walaupun bila saya nampak muka orang-orang tu, rasa sakit hati tu masih ada. Cepat-cepat saya istighfar kerana istighfar ini adalah penawar untuk sakit hati😊
Hati-hati dengan penyakit hati. Kalau nak sembuh dari penyakit ni, rajin-rajinlah istighfar.
Saya taknak bermusuh dengan sesiapa. Dunia dah sangat tenat. Sekarang ni, bukan musuh yang saya nak cari, tapi sahabat yang mampu menarik saya ke syurga nanti. Sekarang ni dah tak nak sibuk untuk membenci, tapi sedang mendidik diri untuk saling menyayangi.
Saya terjumpa satu ayat, "Tersenyumlah kamu kepada mereka yang membencimu, buktikan bahawa hatimu tidak seperti mereka kerana hatimu penuh dengan kebaikan." Kita kekurangan orang-orang baik, maka jadilah kamu salah seorang daripadanya.
Saya halalkan segala fitnah dan segala umpatan. Kerana tak ada manfaat sedikit pun jika saya berdendam atau membenci mereka.❤
Mengharapkan hikmah di atas setiap kejadian♡
"I felt utterly alone, as if I was the last person alive on earth. I can’t describe that feeling of total loneliness. I just wanted to disappear into thin air and not think about anything."
_ Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore.
so this is how growing up looks like. there will be these abrupt and slow transitions you get to experience every single day. and later on you’ll find yourself being overwhelmed and easily drained with everything.
growing older you’ll realize that the things you used to know so well are getting difficult. responsibilities are getting heavier. the world becomes bigger, your ideas are getting smaller. the maze you’re trying to figure out becomes more confusing. when being true to yourself is invalidated. when disagreeing is seen as insecurity. when saying ‘no’ is considered as weakness. when holding a title is the only success. when asking for help is harder to do and withdrawing yourself from the crowd is more convenient for you. it’s draining to catch up with the world. to hold yourself back just to fit in. to set aside the things you’re passionate of doing because they do not conform to society’s practicality.
the version that you long to back, but it's giving you a shadow of reflection of present you, that can accommodate you to recognize how far you've become, so does the grow you continuesly doing, keeping your traces on the track, eagerness to swim without holding your breathe and the countless period you are patiently waiting for.
—myth.
"I think it’s brave.
I think it’s brave that you get up in the morning even if your soul is weary and your bones ache for a rest.
I think it’s brave that you keep on living
even if you don’t know how to anymore.
I think it’s brave that you push away the waves rolling in every day and you decide to fight.
I know there are days when you feel like giving up but i think it’s brave that you never do. Yea I think it's brave."
Lana Rafael
I didn’t regret being kind and understanding people; I regretted being treated in the wrong way.
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"Make memories with them" - They said
"Photos stay but people leave"- They continued.
But no one ever mentioned how painful it is when you have memories with someone who is not there anymore.
No one ever mentioned how hard it is to forget someone you have endless memories with.
No one ever mentioned that memories can be a stone that makes you lose balance while you're walking through life.
Memories are good as long as the people you made them with exist.
But once they're gone. They become nightmares.
📷 Normal People
Here's a reminder for you :
-Don't chase anyone
-Don't beg someone to stay
-Know your worth
-Save space for people who matter
-Accept what cannot be changed
-Leave what isn't for you
-Prioritize Yourself
-Actions Over Words
-Happiness Over Everything
-Love yourself
How you are treated is more important than how much you like someone. You're too good for someone to be unsure about you.
And by this, I pray we get the future we always talk about having.❤️
You are not alone in this battle. You have God. Even when things are not going according to your plan, trust His plan. You’ll get through it and when that happens, I want to know the story of how you surmount your challenges. Be strong and keep fighting with resting in between.
—Franz Mherryon
As you get older, you will reach that point wherein you don't force any connections any longer. You value those who stay but respect those who wants to go on with their lives without you.
You don't chase people anymore because you value yourself and your inner peace. Most importantly, you choose your battles wisely, and you no longer need validation from everyone.
You are not the happiest for now, but you are definitely in a better place than before. 🤍
Don't cry over the past,
it's gone.
Don't stress about the future,
it hasn't arrived.
Live in the present and
make it beautiful. ❤️
I don't go around saving other hearts as often as I used to. I guess life finally took a toll on me.
Now I know how tiring it could be to listen to other people's drama when you have more than enough that you wish you can just go numb. Some days, I just don't want to give my thoughts a chance to drown me. Some days, I don't care if I'm not very lovable. I just want to heal and feel whole again.
If you see me just lying around not helping other people pick their broken pieces, I hope you don't mind. This time, I just want to put myself first.
—Jun Mark Patilan
Always remember that Allāh ﷻ knows.
He knows about your exhaustion, He knows about the harsh words that broke your heart and that you hadn't told anyone about it. He knows about your sadness ( which was caused ) when you were abandoned by those people whom you wished stayed alongside you forever. He knows about the people who let you down, those who you thought supported you endlessly
Breathe. Allow yourself to breathe. Allow yourself to acknowledge the pain and be vulnerable even for just a while. You don’t have to tell it to anyone if you really don’t want, but you can close your eyes and tell Him everything. You don’t have to carry the burden alone. He will help you. He will help us.
—Franz Mherryon
You know what the problem is? You think too much. You’re always living in your head, and you never get out of it. There are things you want to do, people you want to talk to, places you want to visit but you keep waiting for the right time. Well, let me save you the suspense: there is no right time. If you wait for it, I’m afraid you’ll keep waiting forever. Life is now, you are here, this is it. Start. You might not reach where you want to, but you will get somewhere, and I can’t wait to see where that is!
~Anushka, The Storytellers.
Sedang belajar untuk tidak membenci sesiapa♡
Kadang, sekuat apa pun kita pasti akan terguris dengan kata-kata manusia. Apalagi jika kata-kata mereka itu berunsur sindiran, rekaan dan fitnah. Sedih itu sudah pasti. Marah itu boleh jadi.
Siapa saja yang suka kena fitnah. Kita tak buat pun benda tu tapi ada pihak kata dan reka cerita kita buat benda tu. Allahu rasa dia sakit sangat ye😅
Tetapi bila fikir-fikir balik, saya tak rugi sikit pun. Orang-orang yang benci, fitnah, mengumpat kita, biarkanlah. Kita sikit pun tak rugi. Kenapa nak kena marah.
these may be some of those abrupt or slow transitions, things may differ from each individual. but we’ll really get to experience things we thought we never had any idea about. but later on, we figure things out.
i just really pray that we may find a safe place for the thoughts we just pile up in our head, for the things we loved doing, for the feelings we take for granted and even for the dreams we set aside.
may we finally find peace knowing that regardless of how these changes changed us, we still have the courage to create and enjoy a journey that is worthwhile.
—jaeka
"It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on."
✨ Nicholas Sparks
you carry your struggle very well even it is heavy. you lift it up despite of strong force that makes you weak. from the uncertainty of your own, or decision you are misleading. during those season when you can't put yourself back together, or you can't find the route to access your life through living. there's a mud along the way, that will make you realize that you can't fit in this universe harshness. some would say that, you are too vulnerable to conquer your silent battles without catching the drops of rain from your eyes, or too terrified about how failure will mold the inner you. others might whisper in your ears that, you're not good at rhyming yourself by the light of the stars and moon because you are chaotic comet. i hope, regardless of those things, you can evaluate that at this point of your years in living there's always younger version of you that is clapping for keep going.
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So I think I have lost that feeling of home in some people. They seem ordinary to me, like it's necessary for me to live with them, but if I had a choice, then I'd choose not to be here.
To me, they are no different than a stranger. If I can't share my life, my thoughts, and my feelings with them, then they are no use to me. And the big thing is, I'm no use to them.
So I feel stuck with people and places if I'm of no use to them. It was always about me, not about them. And I believe that on the inside, I am not alive enough to feel a sense of belonging somewhere or in someone.
- Sohrab Amaan
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