Daydreaming is all I've left to cope
I can no longer take this life man, it's so depressing, cold and empty place, nobody loves me and I don't love anyone
Now daydreaming is all I've left to cope with my existence, I have another self and different fictional people around me in the daydreaming reality that I love and represents the life that I've dreamed of but failed to achieve
https://redd.it/1xso2th
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Only thing keeping me alive is knowing I can kill myself later
I could kill myself now but I lowkey have FOMO. Maybe I’ll win the lottery or something. I’m turning 18 soon and maybe life could have something better to give me next year so I might just hang around, because I can always kill myself later.
https://redd.it/1xskgoy
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Next week I’ll be dead
This will be my last post. I’m pretty happy and oddly at peace with how everything will go. I’m ready to leave this fucked up world once and for all. I don’t care who notices in my personal life, all I want is to be at peace. Goodluck to you all struggling as well.
https://redd.it/1xsj48t
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Goodbye
I’m done
https://redd.it/1xsi8u8
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think im gonna hang myself tonight
im just scared of becoming braindead or paralyzed
https://redd.it/1xsh0gi
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Been alone so long I hate people
I called the suicide hotline today because I need someone to talk to and they told me to fuck off. I'm right for being a misanthrope. I've always been right. People are literal demons. I can't wait for food prices to skyrocket so far that parents can't feed their kids. I hope more murders and rapes happen in white countries. I pray that gas prices choke logistics until people are eating each other. I love AI and I want it to take all your jobs and make you all obsolete so you all have to sit there alone with your thoughts and it drives all you worthless assholes violently insane so I have a reason to start clubbing people to death in the streets. Fuck zombies, I'd kill any of you for love of the game at this point. Ban this too fuckwad.
https://redd.it/1xsc75o
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If I jumped off a building nobody would care.
objective fact
https://redd.it/1xsccda
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Fuck it I'm just going to say it
I'm a man, I'm almost in my 30s and I don't have any sex at all. I don't get to fuck, and I wish I did. This is not an incel rant or anything misogynistic, I appreciate greatly the women in my life, some of them are incredible friends and coworkers, and yes, they don't owe me anything.
With that out of the way: I really wish I got to be more slutty, in general. I just wanna have more intimacy, have fun, go on fun dates, party, drink. I love being around people but I never get to do any of this. I wanna explore my sexuality, do threesomes (any type of pairing), try new sexual things all the time.
And it's not that I don't have anything else to do, I have hobbies as well that basically take up all the free time, but I wish something else did, at least a part of it.
I feel incredibly pathetic being a grown man and wanting to do so juvenile things, because I've never actually done any of those.
I don't even know how to express this to my peers or if it makes any sense. Some might say that this is a trivial issue, but I'm tired of being rejected and seen as disgusting by every person I approach. This is why I want to end it all.
https://redd.it/1xs9u56
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Feel like a pussy for not having jumped yet
I swear Im such a pussy for not having done it yet. I should just jump off a bridge oh god it’s the only answer. Its not even that scary what am I scared of I’m 18. I should be able to do this. And after that all the pain’s gone. Why am I unable to actually do it? If I had a gun in my hand id shoot myself immediately so why do I waver when it’s a bridge? someone get me a gun fr
https://redd.it/1xrxy56
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I'm drowning. I have nothing left to live for.
I was in a car crash almost 17 months ago, that paralyzed me and killed my whole family. I'm only 23. I had so many dreams. I had to drop out of university so I stopped getting a monthly student allowance, I was in hospital and rehab for almost a year. I'm drowning in hospital debt, hadn't had electricity in 6 days because I can't pay the bill. I haven't eaten in 4 days. I don't have the money to buy food because I need to pay for my medication which I would die without taking. I don't know what to do. Dying seems like the only way out rn 💔 all I wanted these past 17 months was to make my parents proud but I'm a fucking embarrassment. If it weren't because we fully owned the house, I would be homeless rn. I have no one. No one. Maybe doing something to be with my family again is the only solution
https://redd.it/1xs49cx
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Pregnant; cheated on.
Found out a couple days ago my partner cheated on me back in July on a work trip, in the way of sending a picture of his dick to someone and inviting them to come back to his hotel room.
I got every excuse in the book. He forgot; they didn’t actually do anything; etc. etc. he has had PLENTY of chances to come clean about this.
The worst part of it is that I’m currently about 7 weeks pregnant with his child. This man was my best friend. My heart is broken.
I am considering getting an abortion. I have one child already. I’m at the end of my biological clock. This was, in my mind and heart, my last chance to have another baby, this time with someone I loved and trusted. It’s all gone.
I am still in shock. So shocked. Already struggled with mental health prior to this. Have somehow been able to kick a years long marijuana addiction the past week. That’s about all I feel I have going for me right now, as I am broke and my family has made it clear that they do not want me to get an abortion and will not look upon it kindly.
How do I carry this child and look at myself everyday in the mirror.
https://redd.it/1xrznxq
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is there any community that supports and motivate people to un-alive themself?
I[23M\] am done with fake positivity, I am done with following social norms the only thing I want is peace even it costs my life, I tried for 6 years almost it's no good everything I did was a far cry to survive through distractions in this journey the only thing I noticed is my downfall and people who were close, drifting away with time itself, I fucking disgrace even when I scream inside my head it's just an phase or everything will be okey, deep down I know I am coping it's not fixing anything at all at for most distracting the inevitable
https://redd.it/1xrx326
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Soon
im 17 im trans and gay and im morbidly obese and severely mentally ill. there was never a ‘before’ when it came to my lifetime of trauma, i was molested probably before i could even remember or speak and then finally raped by my bio dad. now im mentally ill and my life has amounted to absolutely nothing. i couldn’t even do school, im a drop out now and attempting to get my GED with my moms money and help even though i just want to die. ive been severely neglected my whole life physically, mentally, and emotionally and i genuinely believe but also know that if i died tomorrow, that life for everyone who knows me would get 10x better and nobody would care. Everyone would feel absolute relief.
i have no job either, it hurts to walk around or stand for a long amount of time because im so morbidly obese from myself and neglect, BED and such. im 300 or more pounds and literally only 5’0. It’s really insane. whenever i try to talk to anyone or express any opinion, nobody ever cares. They all look at me and view me the same way, like a pos and they’re right no matter what i do or what ive tried to do. They all see me as my dad because he ruined all of our lives and now im here to continue on the legacy of that. Life for them and everyone would be amazing if they didn’t have to deal with a fat, lazy, abusive piece of shit of a burden who can’t even get a job so it just continues to leech off of everyone around it.
its fine though, i think its finally time that i actually kill myself and not let the next attempt fail. im going out ‘helium’ style, but even then, nobody even told me that killing yourself is just as expensive as living an actual life. i dont want to live, i dont want to pay a guy who has to pay another guy and then another guy to live, going towards what? What future do i have at this point? Who cares about me and has tried to help me? Nobody at all. i have therapy, i have a psychiatrist and i have meds but i don’t even take them because my mom only sends me to the psychiatrist so she can get the meds that make her feel better and get her high. Does it make you feel better knowing that you’ve neglected your severely mentally ill kid who was raped and needed support, but instead was demonized to oblivion, their entire life? i hope it does
Because of my sexual traumas, i have paraphilias as well. The world is genuinely a better place without me in it and i hope i can finally deal the hand in taking out more filth from this earth when i finally kill myself. 120 dollars and i get to kill myself, yay. im making money from Vinted sometimes and even then i can’t even get someone to want to drive me to the post office to drop packages off, its all toleration from everyone. No love or care whatsoever.
i have a boyfriend who accepts me and i think is most definitely my soulmate, but i cant live this life and i refuse to live this life any longer. There’s no hope. Whoever tells you that it gets better if you’ve been suffering from a younger age and onward, it absolutely doesnt. Nobody actually cares. They don’t care about your feelings or opinions, or the fact that you’re also struggling too and need help, they only care about your irritation and stubbornness. Your freak outs or melt downs that inconvenience them, your laziness or your weight, all of that. i cry so much because im leaving my boyfriend behind, but i can’t take it. i have no friends or family besides him that care or would miss me. Talking to people doesn’t help, they don’t actually ever care. Self help isn’t an answer for me at this point either, i have no will and im too far gone. id be saving the people in my life by finally killing myself.
https://redd.it/1xrtjur
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I want to die
I've been suicidal for a while now. Every day is torture. I exist in a body I despise. I don't want to be here. I hate my life. I hate existing om this hell. It's prison. I want to go home but I don't know where that is. I juat want it to be over. I juat want to be done. I can't make it one more day living like this. My kids will be better off without me. Everyone will. I wish I was dead already
https://redd.it/1xrr27o
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I've got a month to achieve something, or it's my time to go.
I've tried so hard, and I'm *still* an unemployed faliure at 30
I turn 30 next month, and I have never been employed. Not for lack of trying to make something of myself. I live with my mum, and depend on her almost entirely.
I graduated in 2019 with a degree in Zoology and I spent *two years* searching for any way into the field with not a single opportunity to even begin, so I let that dream go. Then I decided to use my degree to get into post-grad education and train to be a teacher, which I re-sat twice over a period of another two years, only to fail in the end because I was falsely accused of misconduct (some kids kept reporting me for allegedly swearing at them, causing my sponsor school to withdraw my training spot). I then spent nearly a year job searching for anything at all, with no luck.
Then I decided to cut my pride and go for a career path which I was assured would be accessible, which is private security. I got my SIA door supervisor license in 2025 and to this day I cannot find a firm that will take me on, mostly because of my lack of a concrete work history at my age, they're all suspicious that I'm secretly a criminal or just incompetent.
If you looked at the last 7 years of my life by pay slips and qualifications gained, you'd think I've just sat at home doing nothing, but I've been trying so fucking hard and achieving nothing, and it's miserable to live through, still depending on my parents and job seekers payments at my age.
I have no idea what to do.
https://redd.it/1xroeao
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24m my dream
I would like to buy a rope and create a noose, hang myself and obviously die. But I wish i could clone myself and beat my dead disgusting body as it hangs lifelessly id probably be so ugly
https://redd.it/1xsklq9
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Deciding on anaphylaxis, overdose, or jumping.
i'm so scared of experiencing pain. or having permanent repercussions if it doesn't take
but i know it has to be done. i can already clearly imagine my fear as i fall to my death. it's so real to me already.
i wish i didn't have to go. but i just can't do it all over again, not alone. i feel so bad for my cat. realistically i know he'll he fine. ive made sure of it, as best i can. but i feel like im failing him
its my last day alive. im so sad.
https://redd.it/1xsk8mc
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I think it's over for me. Bye guys, going to end it all tomorrow
Idk, what happened to me. My mental health just got f ed up to the extreme, you can go through my post history and just se the amount of posts I made. I tried eevrything I could have to get help so don't give me suggestions to go to therapist, this site, call helpline. iobv tried every damn thing i could have.
My life was really short, just 17 years. Ik eveyrthing will get better for me in a year or two. ik that. but i don't want to live, it's not even about getting better in the first place. it's just i don't wanna live.
Don't wanna say anything more, just don't die guys. I'm dying but pls y'all don't. Idk, whoam i to even say this, but pls don't ki** urself. Idk, why but pls don't. just don't want anyone else to do the same. Ik me saying anything won't make a difference but still I will just hope no one does the same like me.
love y'al, life was just till here for me. While i am not happy doing this, I feel really re lived. And ykw as the day has been approaching for me to k m s, I have kinda start noticing lil things, appreciating them, valuing them which i never did before.
Talked with my lil sis like this for the first time, with excietment in me.
Ig, life would have been good for me, worth it for me. But idk, nothing is gonna convince me now. So don't try to convince me.
And dk, but today just seems so diff. Tomorrow will be my last day, hopefully it will go great before I end. Just pls 2 days peaceful pls, pls i beg pls..
https://redd.it/1xshjsx
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I’m gonna likely kill myself this month.
I’m so exhausted I don’t even wanna explain why. All I can say is I’m deeply deeply sad and I crave a kind of peace only a god can give me and a freedom that only an afterlife can allow. I don’t want the burden of consciousness. Plus I suck as a human being. I suck at living. I don’t wanna do this anymore. I have created a notebook of everything I have ever felt and every reason why to leave anybody, mainly my mother, who might care as of why I have done what I did. As well as my desires going forward. I don’t even want nobody to feel sorry for me. I don’t want pity. I just want this weight off my body. My birthday is this month. I’ll be 23. I’m not being edgy. I just wanna feel better. I’ve been sad for a very very long time. I don’t wanna be sad anymore. I don’t wanna be misunderstood, assumed to be this or that, blamed, expected to, responsible, etc. I wanna be free of all pain and obligation. I want freedom. I don’t wanna feel so bored all the time. Absolutely nothing makes life worth it for me and I feel absolutely no desire in living or pursuing anymore. Hell, even my hobbies are not enjoyable anymore. I just wanna go. I do feel bad for what I’m gonna do because nobody’s gonna feel why, they might understand why, but they don’t feel my why. I do feel bad for my mom, but hell, she knows I have depression. I’m simply a victim of the sickness and that’s okay. I did my best.
https://redd.it/1xshxsd
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i hate everyone and everything
i cant keep going on like this, my life must end soon. i fucking hate myself and everything and everyone except my family. I genuinely want to grab a shard and stab my fucking jugular because of how pathetic my life is. why was i brought here. i want to FUCKING DIE. IM FUCKING WORTHLESS!!!!!!!!!! Nobody will ever get it. Im a fucking screw up idiot failure i hate everything about myself i wish i was who I wish I could be I wish I could live normally and be somewhat near happiness. I wish living wasnt awful. I want to FUCKING DIE!’nn
https://redd.it/1xseo01
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Miserable life
I'm not claiming to have the worst life, it's objectively wrong, but my life is just so damn pathetic. I have made every fucking thing in my life worse by being me and just existing.
There's simply no aspect of my life that I'm proud of or can talk about confidently. I have no friends, which is obviously my own fault for not learning conservational skills or being attractive.
I want to kill myself every single waking moment of my existence, but I can't do that either. I've scared myself off by almost dying by cutting at age 17. I don't have access to guns. I feel like jumping off or drowning is not very a effective guaranteed way of dying. I don't have money to buy drugs/meds.
I cannot do anything in my miserable life, please can i just simply have a way out please. This shit fucking sucks.
https://redd.it/1xsabeo
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What's the Point of It All?
I sometimes wonder what's the point of all this. Why does life have to be like this? How can someone simply come into existence without ever asking for it, only to find themselves surrounded by problems, struggles, and suffering? Is there something out there enjoying itself while I'm here struggling just to get through life? I never chose any of this. I never asked to be born, yet somehow I'm expected to deal with everything life throws at me. What am I supposed to make of an existence I never wanted in the first place?
https://redd.it/1xsan5o
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I wrote my note
I wrote my suicide note today. I guess that’s all I have to say.
https://redd.it/1xs6znv
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i hate being a girl.
it makes all of my problems worse. every time i go on the internet, women are always sexualized, and their value is reduced solely to how attractive they are. if they are not attractive, they are essentially ghosts. not even ghosts, because with ghosts, at least they won't say anything because they're invisible. if you're an unattractive woman, people will let you know, and will treat you like genuine garbage, because to most people, women have no worth beyond their sex appeal.
when i try to watch anime, or play video games, or hell, even watch a show or movie, every single female character is always made to pander to the male gaze and to be "profitable". it's fucking dehumanizing, seeing that male characters can have diverse personalities and be loved, but female characters are only seen as valuable if they're hot enough for male audiences to jerk off to. i hate it. i fucking hate how much women are sexualized EVERYWHERE.
obviously anime is especially weird about this but it happens in other shows or movies too. women are always just the supporting role for a male protagonist and are never explored deeply. when you look at anime, you just see the absolute worst of it
and then when women get stuff like breast reductions to release the fucking pain of big breasts, men immediately start saying shit like "she's mid now" "she nerfed herself" like she's some fucking sex product for you to evaluate. i fucking hate it. i wish women were seen as PEOPLE.
it feels like anywhere i go, i'm always reminded that i will always just be a sex object. i fucking hate it. i wish i was born a boy or just aborted. i can't do this anymore
https://redd.it/1xs4ucj
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Drives me insane that I have no means to do it
Tried to end my life a whole bunch of times. Never succeeded. Apparently I'm just too scared to do it properly.
I'm too fucked in the head (neurodevelopmental disability plus mental illness) to live a normal life. To go to uni or to work a normal job. To have a relationship or stable friendships. There is not a single career that I believe I could manage without being in even deeper misery than I am right now. And on top of it all, this privileged-ass country I'm living in is going to shit because of greed. Tale as old as time. I feel disillusioned about the state of the world and my own life and there is no escape.
https://redd.it/1xs0mr3
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Death isn’t scary
I’ve gotten to the point where I forgot how it feels to be scared of death. I literally can’t remember how I was once afraid of it.
I find it comforting to think about the idea of eternal sleeping, it’s like my body is floating somewhere with no pain.
What really scares me though is the thought of living another day.
https://redd.it/1xrwcpv
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Unfortunately I woke up today
Maybe tomorrow
https://redd.it/1xrt1a5
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Goodbye
Love you all
https://redd.it/1xrsh8n
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I'm going to commit suicide soon because of the loss of my boyfriend.
My boyfriend died in a car accident a year ago. We dated for two and a half years. He did everything for me: wrote poetry, drew pictures every day, helped me in difficult situations, and was always ready to drop what he was doing to come and help. I felt incredibly comfortable talking to him, we shared jokes, and made so many memories. I truly don't understand why I'm living now. You can tell me that the meaning of life isn't only in relationships, but even despite my favorite job and friends, I feel like my life is over. I've seen many psychologists and psychiatrists, taken pills, but nothing has helped. My friends say that everything is still to come, and I'll meet my future husband. But will that ever happen? Why would I want another man when I can't imagine anyone more handsome or better than my deceased boyfriend? Moreover, several guys have asked me out this year, but some made fun of my loss, while others insulted my appearance and only wanted se* with me. I don't have the strength to wait for things to get better. I believe my decision was the right one, although I have doubts about my dog and my parents.
https://redd.it/1xrqvd0
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My country is suicidal
Please... desperately need an international attention. To anyone who can help international presence, my country Indonesia ban reddit for some reason and I could access reddit as I live abroad.
We are currently facing huge crisis from our corrupt government. For those who don't know, they have been burning all the forest in our country and somehow they haven't accept any help from neighbouring country because their agenda is to burn them all down and plant palm tree for a bio-fuel program (which definately ran by the greedy elite group to make more and more money), create plenty of stupid program for their circle of friend to do corruption on those projects -> free lunch program for students which cause too much food poisoning and their diffence against that allegation is that it is still under 0.01% case which out of milions of student the number still goes up to hundred if not thousands across the whole country
For anyone wondering what country this is, it is Indonesia🇮🇩
Anyone from Singapore, Malaysia and Brunei. Would be affected by the forest fire already...
We have been protesting but again it is civilian vs police and military as the government are using them as shield
We need your help! Back us up on international presence...
This might not be about suicidal watch but all those evil people themself are enough to suffer thousand if not milions of people in my country.... and if it doesn't make them suicidal, they definately just surviving day by day....
So please... I am begging you, internet please do your job
I am desperate, we are desperate...
We try to fight the alghorithm but the goverment keep taking our post down, we are silence by them...
If any of you willing to help, please help us by spreading the word of our corrupt govenment🙏
https://www.threads.com/share/_ysSbVsMs
https://redd.it/1xro5qf
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