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Physically healthy Dutch woman, 28, decides to be euthanized due to crippling depression

I hope this means I have a chance 🤞

https://nypost.com/2024/04/02/world-news/28-year-old-woman-decides-to-be-euthanized-due-to-mental-health-issues/

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I refuse to give myself credit for anything

You took a shower this week? You're still a loser. Brushed your teeth? Loser. When outside? Loser. You forced yourself to eat some shit food? Loser. You finally got out of bed today? Loser. Why the fuck would I pay myself on the back for that there's literally an entire world living their lives. It's a truly pathetic existence.

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I regularly fantasize about my suicide.

Originally posted on r/depression but nobody gives a shit about me so I got no responses


I regularly fantasize about my suicide.
I often find myself fantasizing about my suicide. Not just occasionally, but daily, hell sometimes hourly. I almost went through with it one time but I stopped myself, I’m not sure why. For some reason it’s comforting to imagine myself hanging from a rope, or diving in front of a train. I am a musician, and a dream of mine is to kill myself onstage at a live show. Is this weird? Has anybody else ever thought like this? I enjoy my own misery sometime as well, I’m completely backwards

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Please someone help me? This is my last plea for help. I haven't eaten in 2 days and I just need some food. I should just end my life tonight.

I'm not asking for money, just food. If anyone can help. No food pantries or food banks close by.

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Beware of what you post here

Yesterday I made a post about how I was going kill myself in the evening. Obviously that didn't end up happening. Someone on the subreddit called the cops on me and they showed up around 10pm. I know it was from Reddit because they specifically mentioned someone on reddit made the report.

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22M. Fucking hate how ugly I am. I just want to be dead.

I'm tired of my looks. I fucking hate my abysmal face and features. I'm 22 and my hair is already thinning. It's fucking embarassing. I hate my fucking genes. Why? Why did I have to be born like this? Why did I have to be born fucking ugly and with the worst traits from my parents imaginable. I try working out and dieting and I can barely lose weight. I've never had a gf and never will despite my efforts. I have a career and place of my own and car yet no one wants me and they would rather date the guys who still live with their parents working dead end jobs than give me a chance simply because of my fucking face. I'm done. I've accepted the face that I'm never going to be loved or liked back or ever have a girlfriend. I'm always going to be showing up to family events without a girlfriend, its fucking embarassing when all my cousins my age bring their bfs/gfs to the holidays. Yet theres me, single as fucking always. I'm killing myself soon and I couldn't be happier. Fuck this.

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I don't think I can take 2½ more years in school. I just wanna run away and live off the land somewhere

I hate school. I just want to run away and live off of the land somewhere far away with a boyfriend and a dog.

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Why can’t we be like the Dutch?

The Dutch have it figured out. If I say fuck this life and my shrink agrees I am beyond help, they have a doctor come in to assist you in offing yourself. Sounds like a great system. We should get so progressive in the States. Because FUCK. THIS. LIFE!

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Hi, me again. While I was writing this, maybe I was supposed to have an autopsy or be in the hospital.

Some people have seen it: Today I wanted to commit suicide by jumping on the train tracks. I don't remember exactly if it was the 11.21 o'clock train or what it was. It was going to be your death and my salvation, here the train was coming, I would finally be saved, I closed my eyes and took a step forward. Just as I was about to throw myself, the security pulled me and held me. Then he hugged me. This hug felt so good that it is perhaps impossible to describe it in words. At that moment, I gave myself a little time for a while. Anyway, thank you for reading, and also to the person in security.

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I'm 13 and i want to die rn



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Can i die from cutting my wrist?

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Fuck this. I am done

They say there are not only bad people in the world, there are also good ones. Then why the fuck don't I meet or see them?

I am a good person, I always have good intentions. Just like I was told when I was brought up. Yet I live a really unsatisfying life.

I do not like how the people in my life are. I know not everyone can think the same way you do, but everyone? I am a university student and the people there are really shallow individuals. Apparently, people only care about you if you can be of service to them. They do not care if you genuinely care about them and their lives, they do not care if you are a good person and always do your best. What you need to do is to be at their beck and call, give them free car rides, act exactly how they want you to when they want you to. They do not care that you have to pay for the car, that you have to pay for fuel, that you have to use up your own energy to drive the car. I always thought if I treated people well and was a good person, people would be kind to me, but apparently life is not like that. Nowadays, when I look at these people, I feel such rage, disgust and anger. People are mean. Life is mean.

This is not just one bad day, I have always seen this. This has gotten so bad that I do not want to live anymore. I do not want to have to go through all this bullshit everyday till the day I die. I want to go away. I just wanted to feel true happiness, like it is described in books and movies. Are these just empty promises, just things made up to make people feel better about the world? Can't I have my goddamn happy ending?

I used to be very suicidal recently. But now I just say fuck them, fuck all these assholes and parasites, fuck god and his mean creation, fuck all these fake people in the government, fuck all the people who expect things from you without giving anything in return, fuck the people who play with others and fuck life itself.

I am just gonna hang out here and there and chill till I die. We'll see how it goes

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My fiance of 2 years cheated on me but of course he did. I want to die.

I don't want to live. I'm so dumb and stupid and this is all my fault. In the beginning, he was with a woman for 10 years and told me she had passed away from cancer during COVID-19 and made up this whole sob story about how horrible it was when she died and turned out, she was very much alive and they were still planning to get married. So he gets caught and I take him back like an idiot just for him to flip around and do it to me. But of course he did right? Like of course he did it to me??? Why was I dumb enough to think I would be different? I mean he lied about someone being dead?! Of course, he would do that to me. I deserve to die for falling for that crap. And now I've been displaced with no here to go because I am an idiot.

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I just want to end it all. I am such a stupid idiot....

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Reading academic articles about suicide

I am not sharing what I have learned about suicide statistics from literature reviews. I researched about what method has the highest success rate and I think I will lean on to that. No, it's not poisoning.

I feel so empty in the last 5 months because I am living a lie. I am not graduating uni. I am in my final year and I fucked up. Context, I was diagnosed of anxieties (yes anxietIES) and struggled with suicidal ideation. I also attempted suicide few years ago but chickened out. I am so scared of my parents knowing that I will not graduate. I'm sorry I am a fucking failure but this is not my fault because I did not want to be like this. All of my negative experiences in the past 5 years was due to their major decision that impacted me negatively.

I wanna run away and drown myself in the waters but it's too cold now, it's too uncomfortable. I wanna overdose on some pills but it's not effective, IT'S NOT.

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I'm 13 and I took 1600mgs of ibuprofen...now what

like i said im 13 i weigh around 120lbs and idk what will happen but..🤷‍♀️

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My girlfriend is suicidal

This is my first post ever. I’ve been with my girlfriend for almost 2 years, we are both 24. She’s amazing in so many ways and I love her. She is diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. When she first told me this, she also told me she had previously attempted suicide. She made it seem like a thing of the past and that she was past that. Looking back on it, I should have stopped there, but I really believed her and I saw the best in her. We talked for a while before dating because I did not want to settle down. There were multiple occasions where she threatened me with suicide if I left her or was with other women. I will never forget those moments .I never thought that I would find myself in the situation where I would give into that. But I felt so much like her death would be my fault, and I really did care about her well-being. Anyways, we ended up dating. Now it’s been almost 2 years. She’s often told me throughout the relationship that I’m all she has, and that she couldn’t live without me. Every time she says things like that, I know what it really means. I feel like the relationship has distanced me from my friends, my health, and myself. I finally tried to break up with her yesterday. She hit herself, screamed, told me it would be my fault when she was “hanging from a tree”. I still care about her a lot and it hurt me so much. In that moment, I took her back and gave it another chance. But the truth is, I’m distraught. I know this isn’t right, but I don’t know what else to do. Has anyone been in this situation before? I feel like I can’t talk to family or friends about this because they see her all the time and I don’t want them to know this about her. I want to protect her public image. I feel like going on here is my last resort.


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I’ve wanted to kill myself since I was 12. I’m tired of pretending my life’s supposed to get better.

I’m almost 30 now. I’ve been in therapy for that whole time. I’ve hated myself that whole time. I’ve done all the ridiculous things they tell you to do to “heal”. I’m not any closer. I want to jump in front of a metro car and end everything. I am tired of suffering.

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In roughly 7 hours I will turn 30. In approximately 10 hours I will be drowning myself. Unfortunately I think it’s entirely justified and reasonable.

Here’s the thing:
I don’t have a girlfriend.
I don’t have any close friends that I see anymore.
I don’t have my parents anymore.
I don’t have a pet.
I don’t have any love or sense of purpose in my daily life, and I don’t think live like this anymore. Without love or purpose life becomes a hollow void. Why should I look forward to 40-50 odd Christmases, Birthdays, Easters, New Year’s Eves, etc on my own? There’s is no point and I don’t really matter to anyone anymore, so I think at this point I’ll finally take charge and draw the line. I am simply going to walk into the ocean in my best clothes with some rocks and various pockets.

I hope I’ll see some loved ones again. And if not at least I’ll stop being a living joke. I might’ve failed in joining club 27, but I am not living past 30 like this. Goodbye.

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Train death or helium death?

That is the question. Violent or nonviolent suicide? What's the difference? I am so depressed I think I would welcome physical pain even if it's the pain of death. But I have two kids and two parents who've already lost one child, my sister, ten years this June. But I can hardly function. I welcome death. Every morning is hell. Every evening is hell. Only content when I'm drunk. Secretly drinking and my wife's suspicious. In trouble at work. I'm 41. I've seen enough I think. It would be poetic to commit suicide on the anniversary of my sister's death right??

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evil people on here

because of my last post, i didn’t receive the support i was looking for, but i did receive hate messages telling me how ugly i am. they just took repeated jabs at my appearance, knowing that i’m suicidal. it was sheer evil. i feel completely broken.

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My crush likes me back and now I wanna kill myself because I have a small dick

There's this really cute girl who works in a cafe beside my workplace. I've had a crush on her since the longest time but given my condition, like any other crush, I never approached her. Recently I found from someone else working there that she likes me too maybe cuz well I'm not a bad looking guy myself. I was fine up untill I didn't know that but now since I know she likes me, I wanna kill myself.

My dick size is my biggest insecurity. On a good day I'm about 4 inches, really thin too that looks like a thumb so basically useless. I am also blessed with erectyle disfunction so love that for me. I am 25 years old and I have already accepted that I am going to be alone for the rest of my life. But there's this girl, so beautiful and who is willing to go out with me and with whom I might have a future with. But I don't have the guts to approach her, take her out and let her find out I have probably the smallest dick she has ever seen. I mean she can basically get any guy she wants, why should she settle with me?

If I am single and there's someone who is willing to go out with me but I can't make the move because of how fucked I am genetically, then whats the point of living? I try to convince myself that I will live for myself, spend money on myself, travel the world but these are just things I say to myself to make me happy when deep down I know how desperate I am to be loved, to be cared, to be understood and to have someone by my side when I am old. But I guess I'll never have that. I don't wanna be a sad creature rotting his life away on a 1-bedroom apartment having noone to talk to and share my feelings with. But god, I know its gonna be exactly that way. So how to not end up in that situation? Death. But i am a coward who is afraid of death. I wish, i really wish one day I get enough courage to pull the trigger and end the eternal pain once and for all. I wish…..

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My dad who i love the most passed away from cancer a few hours ago

My dad passed away just a few hours ago after a year long battle with cancer . He was diagnosed with stage 4 metastasis cancer . At first i was dumbfounded and tried to cry but the tears wouldn’t come out but then when i saw my dads lifeless body before was buried i couldn’t hold back tears . I dont know how everyone’s relationship with their father is but my father was my hero he sacrificed so much for us . I dont know how to deal with it i went and bought a handgun and some 9mm fmj i pointed the gun to my head at least 20 times but couldn’t find

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If you’re thinking about OD, here’s your sign to rethink your choices before it’s too late.

I (f20) have tried taking my life on multiple occasions all by trying to OD on pills throughout the past 3 years. And they have all failed miserably.

My first and second attempt, I took 15,000 mg of Tylenol. I ended up in ICU for a few days sick af and in tons of pain. And got sent to a mental hospital.
My third attempt, I took 83,500 mg of Tylenol. That should be enough to take out a 150 lb 19 yr old, right? NOPE.
I ended up passing out on my bathroom floor that night after vomiting for what felt like hours. And when I woke up, I was in a hospital bed. It was too late for doctors to pump my stomach or to give me charcoal to throw up what was left in my system so they made me wait out the pain. I was MISERABLE. I ended up going into the mental hospital again.
My fourth attempt and so on, I tried different pain relievers just upping the dose each time. All of which had the same outcome.
The point I’m trying to make is, don’t OD. It most likely won’t work and you will end up being miserable for days on end. I can now only take 1 pill at once when taking my medications or else I will gag purely because my body goes into “survival mode” now whenever I see a pill. And I have a very very sensitive stomach due to the protective lining surrounding my stomach being ripped to shreds.

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What is your reason for wanting to die?

For me, it's because I think life is just not worth it. Working your ass off for 50 years just to be able to afford to live? Not for me. I've come to realize that life is meaningless, there's no point, and it's all suffering. I'm planning to end it before 30 (currently 17), it could be next year, in 5 years or 10 years and no don't try to talk me out of it.

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Im killing myself today, fuck this life

Parents are bullies, won't support me, I'm only 15 they won't take me to a dentist let me go back to school.

They think I'm a lazy bum or something, I want to be somewhere in life but I'm dragged down every single day.

I wish I had different parents, I hate it I hate it so much I don't know why this is happening to me.
I'm just gonna hang myself tonight, I seriously can't cope I've been thinking of it since I was 12 and it's not getting any better.

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I'm gay , everyone hates me . I just want to die

I'm gay, everyone hates me

Hello there ,I am from a country that doesn't not tolerate "alternative sexual orientations" all my friends and family are homophobic..in a level that if they new about me they'll kill me themselves, am tired of pretending to be straight, am always depressed and suicidal..nobody knows about my orientation but I can't take it anymore. I planning of coming out to everyone and ending it all..I can't suffer anymore. People like me have been killed in my country with even police commiting extra judicial killing and nobody does anything...🥺🥺
The only person who knew and loved me got luck to move to Germany permanently through the rainbow rail..I couldn't let him not go

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Why'd you postpone your death

I've been dreaming about not existing for past decade. There were few times when I felt bearable thanks to drugs, video games or any other thing or activity I could abuse the shit out of. Yet, I always spiral down to being suicidal and seeing no point in being alive.
I have achieved small goals like getting job that pays a bit more than enough, quit my addictions, having long term partner, seeing therapist and a few more. But apparently it's not enough as I'm unable to work and feel any better no matter what I do.
I feel like I need drugs to be able to bear the world as is. I'm so tired of this shit and began considering suicide or getting back to drugs but its only postponing the inevitable.
Not sure what I want to achieve by writing this post

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Im preparing my suicide right now

Im preparing my suicide right now. I want to write a letter with all reasons and maybe film a apology video. Than i want to sell all my stuff so my family has some money. Delete some things online also. Than its time to say goodbye to everyone

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I hate this world and most people so much.

I swear most people are uncaring

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I just exist. It's hard.

I work nights with the exception of 2 days off every week, I guess when I get home I sleep my days away and do it all over again but lately I don't feel like I'm living. I feel like my body is just moving and mentally I'm not here, having my own home, responsibilities now it's been hard to do things I actually enjoy. Or to see/talk to people I actually do be around. I feel like I only have a few support systems however they aren't really the best systems. If I'm not asleep I'm at work, if I'm not at work or asleep I'm just empty. I don't know how to make friends, but I wish I had some, I get bad derealization, it's been difficult to process the world around me. I see many people in here begging for someone to talk to them and I want to respond but I guess I'm scared If that makes sense, I'm just tired of feeling empty and sleeping so much, just tired of walking around in a shell

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