16m i got raped by woman
you dont have to believe me it happened 2 weeks ago i feel so ugly and dirty she forced me i said no many times im gonna hang myself in few days i dont want to live anymore i want to cry
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it's all lies
nobody cares until we're dead and gone. and even then, they don't care that you're gone and that they'll never see you again or anything. they only care about how it'll make them feel.
that's why everyone is so adamant on stopping us. not because they want us to live. but because they wanna avoid the negative emotions that come with it. they don't wanna live like us because they know it's miserable. so they want us to keep suffering so they can be happy.
i don't care how selfish that may sound. it's the truth, plain and simple. we suffer just so others can be happy. our happiness means nothing to anyone.
https://redd.it/1bxv99v
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I can't afford rent this month. I lost my job, my car, and now I'll lose my house. I wish I were dead.
Not much more to say than that.
https://redd.it/1bxvca9
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I would rather die than live like this
I’ve an overweight 20 year old girl and it’s literally torture seeing all of my pretty and skinny friends live their best lives while I’m a pathetic food addict and binge eater that can never control my weight and just keeps gaining.
What’s the point of being alive if I’m in a body that I hate and can’t do any thing about? No matter how hard I try to count my calories and workout, I end up binge eating inevitably. And then my weight goes up. And then I’m clean from binge eating for a few days. And then I binge. Then my weight goes up again. I’m sad that I gained weight and just wanna comfort myself by eating food.
https://redd.it/1bxpc62
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I'm a coward with small dick.
I'm turning 20 in september, and I've never ever had a girlfriend. Not even a talking stage. I fell in love three times, and I kinda still miss the third girl, especially because she kind of liked me too (but not in a romantic way), so I don't know why she did what she did (tldr; ruining our friendship and almost ruining someone's marriage by forced- kissing our mutual, married friend), but after that I can't talk to someome who's doing such a horrible things.
But even if, somehow, there is a women in this world that would have the fellings for me, she will be very quickly disappointed.
Because my dick is ridiculously small. Like it's not even a dick. It's a dicklet, or a male clit. I can't even masturbate properly, so there is absolutely no talking about any sexual activities in my life. And this is where my eventual relationship comes to end. I don't have any experience in relationships either, so therefore I would ruin it on way or another.
I'm such a dissapoitment for everyone, and my parents still hope for grandchildrens from me...
https://redd.it/1bxh50o
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i love how people say "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" as if that's a BAD thing
because A) a permanent solution is EXACTLY what i want, and B) just because you think it's a temporary problem, doesn't mean it actually is.
in other words, it's the perfect solution.
https://redd.it/1bxhtye
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they care enough to guilt me into staying alive but not enough to care for me while I’m here
everyone wants me to stay alive no matter how I feel, and loves to guilt me talking about how their lives would be irreversibly ruined if something happened to me. But can’t simply reach out to ask me how I’m doing once in a while, or check in just to see if I need someone once in a blue moon. Knowing I’m struggling to keep going. Why do I even spare their feelings anymore? I should just do it. fuck it.
it’s actually sad how oblivious you are to how close I am to blowing my brains out. because you don’t care. you won’t care until I’m in the ground.
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Since my life is over. Why not end it?
35 about to turn 36. Lost everything. My apartment, moved back in with my old parents, never had a girlfriend, porn addict who can't stop, lost my job and been unemployed for 4 years, failed studies, no friends due to the shame so I isolate and gaslight everyone in my surroundings. I honestly can't say a single positive thing about my life or who I am.
A pathetic loser with no worthy future and society agrees. I am too maladapted after all the trauma that has happened to me recently. Seizures, accidents, brain tumor and medications that gives me such severe side effects but only gets dismissed by doctors.
Used to be optimistic and be able to see a future worthy living for when I was younger, even when I was depressed. Nowadays I simply can't.
I live in Sweden and getting help for this is close to impossible cause noone believes me. All I need is a job and what I've been through isn't something that can lead to trauma, especially since the trauma has been caused by the medical system.
The only way to be taken seriously is to survive a serious suicidal attempt or else it's just empty words. Jumping off the bridge might be the only solution, most likely I die which will be such a relief. If I survive at least I will be taken seriously, or well, most likely not anyway. Useless pieces of shitheads like myself has no worth to society and you get treated accordingly.
So why should I not end it? Why keep on suffering EVERY DAY because suicide is "wrong" and it exist "help" (no there is no help for this, all lies).
https://redd.it/1bxc1ih
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Wish I was a cat.
How about you? lol
https://redd.it/1bx9ndy
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Im about to commit suicide
im lonely
im in pain
i want it to end
but at the same time I still want to be with people I love... it hurts that those people don't feel the same about me.
I just want it all to be done with, I'm gonna buy a rope today and just finalize everything. I know i need to learn to love myself but would it kill people to tell me that they still want me around? haha Apparently so, yes...
If this post stays up 4 hours from now I'm probably gone... Be kind to people around you and check up on them.. Please listen to their cries of help.
https://redd.it/1bx5dbq
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Some people said that suicidal people are attention-seekers
There was a post talking about how people who are suicidal and who commit suicide are spoiled little brats and attention-seekers. This post got thousands of likes, and many people have joined in on this sentiment and agreed. This really hurt my feelings because I've always been suicidal, and now I see that people dismiss my pain as attention-seeking and whiny. That was a big insult to people who have actually taken their lives. It basically is saying that they are just stupid melodramatic whiners, and they chose their pain.
A lot of people on that post were saying that happiness is a choice, and suicidal people choose to look at the negative. Many of them said that they also went through traumatic hardships in life but chose to rise above them instead of letting them destroy them. Basically, they were all acting like suicidal people were at fault for their predicament and like we are all just bad people who want to be negative. What do you guys think about those comments? Are those people right? Are we all just stupid people who choose to be negative?
https://redd.it/1bx4tqh
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Almost killed myself last night
Last night I decided to get as violently drunk as possible in an effort to eliminate my survival instincts and make hanging myself easier. I ended up drinking so much fucking booze I passed out on the floor before I could do anything. I don’t even know how to feel right now, I’m at a complete loss for words. Was it a sign I shouldn’t do it? What the fuck is happening.
https://redd.it/1bx1y9n
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im gonna end my life tonight
im 17 and im so useless so whats the point of being alive maybe its gonna sound funny cuz im young but i dont have any reasons to live im such a failure
https://redd.it/1bwxk62
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For anyone considering suicide, here is the perfect method.
Time. No matter whether you want to die or you want to live. Time will kill you. No matter what. 178 billion humans and all the living species in the past all gone. I know, you just want to end this now, don't want to wait. But your life is just a short blink in the vast timeframe of the universe. Relax...you are going to die. Until then just observe, feel and appreciate the beauty, art and horror of everything this world has to offer.
Respect time. You are only here for few seconds. Just enough to feel and appreciate everything. You are not going to feel anything for the infinity ahead. Make it count. Think yourself.
https://redd.it/1bwrj9b
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Marriage was such a mistake
The greatest mistake I made, other than not killing myself in my twenties, was getting married and having children. Just spent a half hour on the roof of my office building but couldn't do it because of them. They have a piece of garbage for a father but they rely on me. So now I'm back at work and the pain is there and will always be there and I can never fix it. I hate being me. I hate it. I've tried to be better for fifty years and I will never be anything but garbage. Recently learned my life insurance isn't even in effect anymore, so dying would just leave them poor and sad. Nothing makes me stop being me and I am awful.
https://redd.it/1bwkw58
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Suicide doesnt sound too bad
I’ve done nothing my entire life. I’ve never done anything because I’m the biggest coward. I’m too scared to do anything that could cause me the slightest discomfort. I’ve never talked to a girl. Never had a girlfriend or just a girl friend. I’m weird. Have nothing interesting about me. Never snuck out, never stayed out all night, never did anything with friends outside of school other than play basketball for an hour. Suicide would be the only thing with meaning in my life. At least I can be another example of what happens when you never try. I’m on the verge of giving up. I don’t see anything up ahead. I see nothing coming for me. Killing myself would be the first time I step out of my comfort zone. Only issue is I am a very empathetic person, and don’t want to do that unless we can erase me off of everyone’s minds, not that many people even notice my existence in the first place.
https://redd.it/1bxxhmq
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Is life worth living even if you don't have a reason to live?
I'm 18 and I have a logically comfortable life. If I want something, all I have to do is ask for it or work for it, either way I get it. I'm less than a month away from graduation and I planned to move out and start a new life by myself, but I don't have a plan after that. I'm considering just forgetting all hope and offing myself somewhere in the ocean so no one can find my body. Is there a reason not to if I have zero interests or real hope?
https://redd.it/1bxwiuc
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Goodbye im done
I cannot take being a friendless unemployed bum anymore. I have no desire to work a 9-5 for the rest of my adult life nor do I have the energy to do anything really. My whole life i have been medicated for adhd and depression and it has not done shit. Im failing college and I will not be able to cope with adult life once it really arrives. My childhood was basically me crying in my room everyday, so I cannot imagine how bad adulthood will be. If im being honest, i dont really know how people live in this world. Perhaps I was cursed when I was born with Autism and ADHD. In another world I can hopefully get friends and a partner that I can share life with. I am done with the ratrace of life and wasting everyday in my rotting room. And no, it does not get better unlike what people tell me. Everyday is a damn struggle and pain being alone and depressed. My Depression will perhaps never go away.Goodbye reddit and to this subreddit specifically for helping me get through some times. Today I will hang myself and I will try my best to make sure it does not fail, like me previous attempts. Goodbye Y'all.
https://redd.it/1bxomwd
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My birthday today..
I do not want to become older
https://redd.it/1bxnowk
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Why do people do this?
Whenever suicide is mentioned, people react incredibly defensive and commanding. Overly positivistic and tell you life is beautiful and all that crap, yet then when you follow their unsolicited advice and ask if they could help you with your problem they laugh and say they have their own (which contradicts their initial life is beautiful ted talk as well).
Is it simply because they don’t actually care and just don’t want to be liable for someone’s death?
But then again, that also could be so easily solved if euthanasia was legal and available. I just don’t understand. Why are they so fixated on keeping someone alive who openly says they don’t want it?
https://redd.it/1bxjyv1
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Noone gives a shit until you are dead.
I used to SH often before. Was clean for almost 2 years but recently SH’ed a few days ago and having thoughts about doing it again. It feels like I have to harm myself for someone to care and be there and just say they fucking care and actually mean it. What is the point of living in a world where noone cares until its too late?
So fucking tired of “friends” saying “I am here” yet never doing anything to show for it. Can’t even respond to a goddamn message. I am trying to have more faith in people and trying to be mindful that everyone has their own life and problems but don’t make promises you can’t keep.
https://redd.it/1bxfebl
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I’m relaxing I will never get married or have kids, and it makes want to die.
I’m almost 38, and I’m still single. I’m starting to realize the marriage and a family is never going to happen for me. Most men my age are either taken, have a lot of baggage, don’t really want to settle down, or want a younger woman… either that or it’s obvious while they’re still single. I only have a few years of fertility left, and I’m not in a position to have kid on my own or freeze my eggs.
I’m finding accepting a different path nearly impossible. I don’t want to spend the next 30-40 in my current situation, but there doesn’t seem to be an option of anything else. I really just want to die.
*The title is meant to be I’m realizing, not I’m relaxing.
https://redd.it/1bxbsm1
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is it normal to be afraid before you jump off a building to take your life?
title
https://redd.it/1bx8ysb
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Going to kill myself right now
20f, yeah idk what else to do. I’m gonna head rn to my local 24/7 pharmacy to buy some NyQuil and DayQuil and white claws to chug and go to sleep. No one ever bothers to walk in my room. If I never reply then I’m either dead or in a coma. Bye Reddit I just can’t.
https://redd.it/1bx6qf6
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Really drunk and going to kill myself tonignt!
Fuck this world and everyone I know!! I’ve been dealing with A LOT of shit breaand when I need someone they disappear I’m always there for them though! Why would you say you care and then nit show it!! Ignore me then post to your story! I just need someone rite now and I have no one!! pls pls pls just I want to die!! so I get shit faced drunk just to work up courage to end it!! And for the girls why you say you want to be with someone and turn around and cheat! THEN hang with that same dude with my fuckin friends Y’all are despicable e! It’s what they wanted!!
Open to suggestions on ways to kill myself don’t be shy!!
Goodbye ✌️
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I’m sorry I’m really sorry
im sorry but I can’t do this anymore. I need to take my life. I only make things worse for the people around me, I really do. I constantly fail at everything I do, constantly disappointing everyone who puts faith in me. I can’t keep doing that to them, I can’t, it’s not fair. Please just tell me how I can do it at home, preferably easy and not very painful because I’m a pussy but honestly idc anymore, i just need to get away from everything. I don’t want any of that “life is worth living” bs, just please tell me. im a stupid fucking person and I just need to do this. Please. I’m begging please help me leave.
https://redd.it/1bx4zg9
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I tried to kill myself 5 hours ago, didn’t succeeded and nobody found out. What do I do now?
I’m fifteen for reference. It’s weird, I still have stomach pains but it shouldn’t be lethal. I took 8pills of whatever drug I had access to. The pills weren’t strong enough and I haven’t even puked. Telling my parents would freak me out even more. I don’t know what to do. It feels weird. Nothing have changed except two online friends having freaked out when I sent a goodbye message. So what should I do?
Edit: succeed* I’m a moron
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It's so sad to see most people here being below 18
Something is terribly wrong with this world if there are kids trying to end themselves
I am suicidal since 4 years now and I am 16 now so I do understand their feelings but ending your life at that ripe age while others are busy playing video game can be quite overwhelming..
When I first discovered I am suicidal I started hating myself even more because I believed that I was different from other people of my age and was scared of sharing my thoughts with anyone which led me to believe that I am evil for bringing such thoughts in my head and my parents don't deserve a child like me and that wound has stayed with me since......
https://redd.it/1bwvy97
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as a kid, i was jealous of people that have cancer. as an adult, i’m jealous of people that kill themselves
i was a misunderstood kid. i vaguely remember talking to some adult about this and nothing really happened, they thought i meant i wanted the attention cancer kids got, but that wasn’t it at all. i wanted cancer because i wanted to die and i figured if anyone had to have cancer, it should be me. i saw kids that wanted to live that were fighting to live and it was just so unfair. i wanted to trade places with them, because it would help both them and me achieve our goals.
now, i know it’s terrible but i am so jealous of people that can actually go through with it. i’m too much a coward to. and i know that’s probably a good thing or whatever that i can’t bring myself to commit suicide, but it doesn’t stop me from thinking about it all. the. time.
https://redd.it/1bwsm0j
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I’m scared that I caused my friend to end it
Hey y’all. I had a work friend who I adored, really resonated with and she made my day so much better when she was on shift. On the day she took her life, I’d messaged her (we were having a silly little ‘aaaaah mental health chat’) and I said to her along the lines of ‘listen but please remember there’s loads of people who love and care about you’ blah blah.
And then the next day she was dead.
I’m so scared that she felt pressured, patronised, angry and it just tipped her over the edge. The worst part is, I’ll never know. I don’t know how to cope with the ‘what if’. I miss her but I feel like I’m not allowed to because we weren’t out of work friends (properly, followed on socials and stuff). I don’t know what to do with all these emotions.
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