End of it (penis size)
My penis is 4 inch in girth and 5 inch in length. I don't think I want to live anymore tbh, I know if I end up with a girl she'll always want more I can't provide physically, always be disappointed. Fed up of everything, drunk and alone
https://redd.it/1c7ene5
@r_suicidewatch
I’m 18 , and have been hated by everyone
I’m 18 , the hand that’s feeding me at the moment is my Mom’s ex boyfriend’s family, its embarrassing.
I feel like an embarrassment , all through out my life I’ve been told and shown that even as a kid.
I lost a lot of my life to due to me allowing people to affect me, mostly romantic since as a kid I couldn’t deal with being alone, so I would allow anyone in my life regardless how unhealthy they were ( + including me ).
Flashback to now , I was class of 24 now I’m class of 29 due to me due to being in psychiatric hospitals 3 weeks at a time back to back , and going homeless at 17 since of that.
Yet everyone expects you to keep pushing harder , even though less than 10 months ago I was in a domestic shelter for my mom breaking my teeth. I can’t get any break ?
It really does feel like an empty road that I’m walking on by myself with thick fog , no landmarks, no cars or buildings, no clear view on how it will end
https://redd.it/1c7eiuf
@r_suicidewatch
I’m 23 should I kill myself because I don’t make enough money?
Anyone born after the year 2000 is financially fucked. I make more money than 50% of Americans but can’t comfortably afford to move out my parents. If I move out I’d be spending 70% of my income on living and another 25% on taxes.
What’s the point of living? This is reality for anyone my age or younger. I can’t keep forcing myself to work 40-60 hours a week it feels so pointless. I genuinely hate work especially due to the fact with after all my hard work I lose it all to bullshit.
https://redd.it/1c7aa95
@r_suicidewatch
Done, about to jump from 200 ft, should be enough for me to leave this planet
I am a worthless loser person who has done nothing right at all. I have never had a friend or a partner in all my years of living. I am wasting my parents money by failing college, and I have no future ambitions to live any longer by wasting away at a 9-5 shit job. Perhaps I was cursed when I was born with Autism and ADHD, which hampered my ability to make friends and made sure I did not have a proper childhood. my only mmemories of childhood is me crying alone in my room. I am too ugly for any girl to ever like me that is for sure. I see people online and in real life having friends and living life and i cry everytime i see that because I know i will never have that due to the curse that is on me. Goodbye to this subreddit which kept me sane for some time but the time has come for me to leave. Shortly after I post this, I will be jumping from a distance of 200 feet, which is sure to kill me. Goodbye everyone.
https://redd.it/1c74sx6
@r_suicidewatch
I just really want to die.
I have just turned 17. Have had chronic illnesses since the age of 9 and really can't do it anymore. I lost all my childhood, I suck at school (which is a real punch in the gut cause I am clever my illnesses just prevent me from going into school and affect my ability to memorise things). The reasons don't really matter, you don't need to know them all, all I can say is that my reasons are more than valid and I will kill myself this evening, I'm just not sure how. I don't know if this is against the rules of this sub Reddit but is there a painless or quick way to do it?
Edit: no I don't want to kill myself but this is seriously the only option I have, either this or continue living a life full of pain. I mean the correct choice is obvious. I will miss everyone in my life deeply, I'm not sure how they'll fair without me but oh well. I know it's selfish but I don't care, I don't want to deal with this anymore.
https://redd.it/1c72ub6
@r_suicidewatch
im invisible
why
https://redd.it/1c70dfi
@r_suicidewatch
Why you shouldn’t do it
I know it sounds stupid but I just want to say my story and I don’t know who to tell it to. But in my sophomore year of high school I took 2500mg of ibuprofen. Because I thought I wanted to end it all but, I was hit with instant regret and I tried to get it out of my system but it was just too late. So since I was already skipping school for the day I thought if I’m gunna die I might as well be surrounded by the one thing I loved at the house at the time so I brought in my dog. But I broke down, because I was scared so I called poison control and I just kept calling them over and over again because I was just so scared. They told me I would survive but I just didn’t believe them. So I just accepted my fate, I brought my dog with me to my bed room and I was just freezing, it was almost like I was hit. By a wave of just coldness, so I turned the heaters on max and grabbed as many blankets as I could to just stay warm. And I just felt myself getting tired, and when I woke up I just saw my dad yelling at me for having the heaters on full blast and I was just in awe. I didn’t think I would survived that. But think about that, most people say they have instant regret after they do somthing like that. So just think in the long run, would it affect me a month from now or a year from now. It might hurt now but I bet it won’t hurt anymore when you go back and think about when you’ve moved on and chose the right way
( and I get it I’m just a random person on Reddit but think about the people who will wake up and miss you in the morning, it might not seem like it but your family, your friends, and your co-workers care about you.)
https://redd.it/1c6wrr4
@r_suicidewatch
I'm incredibly sick of being a woman
Not trying to undermine what y'all men go through, I just need to rant. Not the pain Olympics, you know?
I had, like, 4 instances of sexual harassment at work this week. Been SAed before. I turned down a regular at work and he's just been such a dick.
Every single time I think I've found "a good one" they do some fucked up shit.
I know a lot of this is also the intersection of being a woman and being poor. Having to stay in abusive relationships for financial reasons, etc.
I'm so tired.
I think the first time I ever posted on this subreddit, I was 19 (26 now) and it was because of being assaulted. Nothing gets better. I can honestly say nothing that has happened between now and then has been worth it. Just endless suffering.
https://redd.it/1c6oynk
@r_suicidewatch
I’m about to down a lethal dose
I’m so fucking done with this pitiful excuse of a life. My children and my partner will be so damn much better off without me.
My therapist, which is very much aware of my suicidal tendencies prescribed me two boxes of 100 225mg venlafaxine, which is more than double the amount needed to off myself.
I’m downing my last bottle of my favorite whiskey and writing my letters to my family. I’m finally getting peace.
I’ve already called the suicide hotline. Nothing to get from there. Tried calling all my friends and family. No one answered as usual.
When I’m done writing I’m downing the pills and taking a walk with my bottle. It is a beautiful night. At least my kids won’t be the ones finding me.
https://redd.it/1c6k5ja
@r_suicidewatch
Each morning wake up disappointed that I didn’t die while I slept
I’ve been going on against my own will for years. I am not afraid of pain for myself but would not want to kill myself in any way that hurts my family. Just wish I could have or convincingly fake a natural or accidental demise that wasn’t obvious suicide to spare my family.
https://redd.it/1bztt99
@r_suicidewatch
Why should a person who is not loved by anyone, who does not believe in any religion, and who has no purpose in life, not commit suicide?
It's me
https://redd.it/1bzq2cn
@r_suicidewatch
Just wish I could sleep and never wake up.
Don’t want to make it hurt, don’t want to endure the pain, I want to stop. The pain.
https://redd.it/1bzpegc
@r_suicidewatch
r/selfharm does not help anymore
they ignore me, my classmates make fun of me for cutting and being suicidal. my little sister is making me wanna die. shes constantly mean to me and my mom or dad is the one who understands me. i go to a therapist but after a day i make trouble again and have to go again. yesterday i injured myself and ruined my 14day long no SH streak. dont ignore me here please. i just wanna vent
https://redd.it/1bzmomd
@r_suicidewatch
“you have your whole life ahead of you” I know that’s the problem
When I say that Im done or I don’t want to live anymore or I see no point to my family they say how you can think that way , you have your whole life ahead of you. Let’s be serious here , who wants to be in that position? being 20 not knowing tf you supposed to do , no seeing a point on living , not having a plan and you have your whole life ahead of you , how is that a blessing? or something positive, you are 20 cool now you got only 50 years of work , you don’t see a point in life but it’s ok ,you are going to survive with those thoughts for 60+ years , you gonna get a cage and be a prisoner like everyone else , you are an adult now and forever so there is no place for happiness,joy,love,humanism,soul just stfu and be a robot for the rest of your life , how you don’t want that ? , how you don’t want to live when the future seems like 100% more pain,misery,basically hell for everyone (including me) , you see what I am saying and to some extent you can’t tell me that this is not the case , at the end of the day I’ll not make children or have a relationship so I pray to be dead until 30 or some if I chose living this way
https://redd.it/1bzgvqg
@r_suicidewatch
It pisses me off how other people say "get help" oh my god.
I hate this. I didn't choose to be born at all. And why should I like life in any way?
I'm not a masochist, I'm not interested in this
https://redd.it/1bzg13c
@r_suicidewatch
the littlest things make me so extremely suicidal i'm on a brink of doing it almost every week
everyone hates me so much or just has so much reluctance towards me i have literally no one except my mom and she's the only reason why I didn't do it yet because if it wasn't for her I would've already been gone with full certainty. I always try my best to be really nice and smile to people but everyone ignores me or treats me like I'm invisible even though I do all I can to seem like a normal friendly person and even people that I thought generally like me at least a bit turn out to be assholes and I have no support from them. I keep trying for my mom and it always ends the same I always return to the starting point I can never do anything to even at least pretend I can be happy and satisfied with life because she said that's her only dream, to see me happy with whatever I decide for myself. It seems so simple but everyday is such a fucking struggle and torture for me I have no one to turn to no one to help me get back up (I dont want to tell my mom about it anymore because she always really worries and it wont do us both any good) and I feel like every day just brings more troubles and difficulties for me like school when I already have my own head to deal with and I'm so utterly dissatisfied everyone just dissapoints me and leaves me after I do my best to be a good and supportive friend. My biggest wish is to go back in time and make my parents have a different child or something because they deserve a much better kid than the dissapointment and constant source of worry that I am. I hope I get in an accident or get a terminal illness so I can have an excuse to pass away, maybe then my parents won't be as sad afterwards.
https://redd.it/1c7b3cd
@r_suicidewatch
I've been told to kill myself by my "family"
My "family" members told me to kill myself after a discussion started because I asked to be respected and said I would not allow people to treat me like trash anymore.
They know I struggle with depression and that I tried to kill myself a few years ago. From time to time, whenever a discussion breaks out they bring that up as a means to offend me, but for the last few days they've been actively telling me that if my life is so difficult I should just kill myself, and this time should make sure I succeed.
It's awful and such a horrible thing to hear. I constantly see people here worried about hurting family members when killing themselves, and when I look at myself, there's not a single soul that would care. I can even picture then happy afterwards.
I really want to disappear, but at the same time I don't want them to become happy because they got what they wanted.
I'm planning on moving out so that it would take longer for them to know what I did, and in case I fail, they wouldn't know.
What I'm feeling right now, I don't wish anyone to feel the same. Not even them. I don't understand how someone can say such a thing to another human being, and it makes me extremely sad to know such people exist.
I don't want to bother anyone, but if someone could talk to me right now, that'd be great. I understand if nobody wants to though.
https://redd.it/1c77sd1
@r_suicidewatch
It would be nice if an asteroid hit the Earth, right? 🙂
Wouldn't it be nice for a catastrophic event to occur, totally out of our control, and take us all out?
I'm thinking an asteroid hitting the earth, a bad person with a nuclear device, a natural disaster, plague...basically anything out of our control that wipes humanity off of the face of this god-forsaken planet.
We wouldn't have to worry about bills, jobs, careers, family, "friends" 🙄, school...everyone would just be dead and forgotten.
One can only dream, I guess. Back to playing in traffic.🤷♀️
https://redd.it/1c76f0b
@r_suicidewatch
I had this rule that I will die if i am not happy by 26.
I always had something going downhill once in a while for me.So I used to have this note saying I will forgive myself if I kill myself if nothing goes my way till I am 26.And then I met someone who understood me and I was all in it and everything seem to be perfect. He saw this note one day and told me now you dont have to worry about it I moved to another country and then he died. I think this is it for me and I should just give up at this point. I have no one around me and I can't talk to my therapist about this. The only thing stopping me from dying is the fact that I live with a few people who dont know anything about me and if I die it will come out as a trauma to those kids. Will I ever have the guts to kill myself without thinking about anyone
https://redd.it/1c73nw6
@r_suicidewatch
Is it better to be dead or homeless?
Everything is fucked and I just cant work or function anymore. I have no other options. My parents are losing their patience with me. Everything is getting worse
https://redd.it/1c70h2m
@r_suicidewatch
Done, about to jump from 265 ft, should be enough
Im 24M, lost my parents, my younger brother and older sister, I dont have anyone, I should go. I hope everyone in the world has their life amazing and I hope everyone here gets better from the bottom of my heart. Goodbye.
https://redd.it/1c6yyxe
@r_suicidewatch
i need someone help me..
Please, if you could help me just get through the next 30 minutes, someone can chat with me. I don't think anyone will want to waste their time on me, but that's my only wish right now.
https://redd.it/1c6wt23
@r_suicidewatch
Being an adult is way too difficult. I wish I killed myself as a kid. This isn’t worth it at all.
https://redd.it/1c6g8ds
@r_suicidewatch
Somebody kill me
13F
I just wanna disappear so fucking bad. My life is completely ruined now. I get bullied by my friends, they tell me I’m worthless, no one cares about me and that my problems don’t matter to them. I don’t even know how I am still alive, I argue with them all the goddamn time, and in the end, I’m always in the wrong when I am trying to hold on when I get bullied every single day. I fought with them a few minutes ago, now I feel terrible. They all went against me saying I was in the wrong. I’m free from their “friendship” since they said they don’t want me around anymore. I don’t wanna go to school tomorrow, I don’t want to see them gossiping about me, I DON’T WANT THAT!
What do I do? I’m crying as I write this. I hope they all fucking die. Fuck them.
I hate myself, I hate them and they hate me. I hate my life, not because it’s bad, but when I hate myself and everything, it’s hard to enjoy the rest. Sorry.
https://redd.it/1c011ru
@r_suicidewatch
Read the news about a Dutch woman being euthanized, I wish I could have the same fate.
I read she had been struggling with mental health issues all her life. So have I, and I’m really tired of this. I’ve ruined my life, body and relationships, and there is no way for me to be happy anymore. I’m a useless amoeba not even good for keeping the environment healthy. I wish it was legal in my country… Maybe after this I can search for ways to die in another country.
https://redd.it/1bzume3
@r_suicidewatch
What’s the easiest thing to overdose on
https://redd.it/1bzooiy
@r_suicidewatch
I keep facing casual racism and it's eating me up
I'm Indian (M21) currently living in US, for my studies, everything here is so much more different than I imagined, it's only been a few months since I've moved here, but I've faced so much racism, passed off as jokes and even actual hateful racism, people keep making "jokes" about curry and deodorant after finding out I'm Indian, there's also the "You don't look Indian", "You're good looking for an Indian", that I've gotten a lot of times, I just feel really alienated with all these things, I've had girls who I was chatting with on dating apps and in real life change their behaviour and become more distant after telling them I'm Indian, what's wrong with being Indian? The worst instance I've faced was when I bought some ladoos (Indian sweet) that I had made myself to my class for my classmates, most people were nice and curious, but then some of them were like, "We've seen how you make food on TikTok, no thanks" and some of them started laughing after saying that, I didn't even know what the fuck they were talking about back then, till I realised it was about some unhygienic street food videos, even locals in India don't eat there, but ignorant Americans think that's how the whole of India is, like we're some stupid filthy subhumans, I hate it so much, there was another instance where someone legit asked me "don't you eat shit?", I was trying to process what the fuck they meant by that then I realised it's probably some stupid video they saw online, what's more hurtful to me is it's also black people, hispanics and asians and arabs (we're literally both brown bruh), doing stuff like this along with white people, black people have been the worst offenders with the casual joke racism along with hispanics, if you'd say the stuff I'm told about other races you'd definitely have problems, but it seems like no one cares about Indians, the other day I had gone on a date with someone from college I met on a dating app, and when people found out, one mfker came up to me and said, "pajeet you got the white girl" and shit like that, I'm not a fucking pajeet you idiot, I try to ignore stuff so I don't get into trouble as I'm on a student visa, so I don't try to escalate stuff, but I've had nights where I literally cry and miss home and think what I've done to deserve this behaviour, and I feel very lonely, I can't even find solace in the online world because it's worse there, some guy once replied to me with some forum called Kiwi something after finding out I'm Indian, and on that people were discussing about genociding and killing Indian people, why is this behaviour so normalised and why is everyone okay with it?
https://redd.it/1bzn9g9
@r_suicidewatch
im sorry for not getting better
please dont listen to my parents. they dont know anything about me, even if they think they do. Please know I was more than my horrible appearance. even if thats all you saw. i loved to sing, dance, draw, and swim. i was just too ashamed to do these things in public. I wished I could have shared the little bit of joy i had with others while i still had it. i am sorry but this world is simply too cruel for me, i have been seeking kindness on this earth for 18 years and have found nothing but hatred, pain, and suffering. I am sorry.
https://redd.it/1bzm5hj
@r_suicidewatch
fuck it. fuck it all. i’m not scared of fucking death. ima enjoy it. three years it’s taken me to do this. tonight will be the night.
https://redd.it/1bzely1
@r_suicidewatch
hugs you
Idk what else to do. You're hurt so I'll hug
https://redd.it/1bzczt4
@r_suicidewatch
